Day 48

Weight: 153.4 (-0.4/day; -0.4/week; -9.0/total)

Well, I just went back and posted for the 2 other days I missed. I have been slacking like crazy and I don't like it. I am "maintaining" all the loss I had for last month but I am not making any progress and my dedication isn't quite what it used to be.

I have been spending too much time with Dave and it's not helping me. I am starting the 'detach' process since I spent most of yesterday depressed. I keep getting my feelings hurt and it's just not worth it anymore. Not that I plan on cutting him out of my life, but I have to put me first.

Part of what will make me feel better is getting my hair done. I am pretty sure that the last time I did was in February. I am not even sure if that's correct. I know I definitely did last November but I am pretty sure there was some time early this year. Either way, it's been so long and I can't handle it anymore so I am just biting the bullet and shelling out the money. I have an appointment in about 90 mins. Yay!

Day 47

Weight 153.8 (+0.2/day; -0.0/week; -8.6/total)

I spent most of that day in a state of depression due to relationship woes so posting didn't happen. I did weigh in though which is a plus, right?

Day 46

No Weigh In - No Post

OK so I didn't weigh in or post on this day because it started off weird all around. I ended up getting up way too early and then had to run around and play Taxi with Dave. Then we ended up at the bar and with pizza... and well...

Day 45

Weight: 153.6 (-0.4/day; -0.2/week; -8.8/total)

Well that's better. I knew yesterday was a fluke. Now if I could just continue to lose... Tomorrow is the football game and Dave is supposed to come over for it. That usually means some not-so-good-for-me food choices. We'll see. I'm thinking about hitting up whole foods for some baked chips and then making some salsa but that seems a little ambitious so far.

Motivation has not made my list for today. LOL

Day 44

Weight 154.0 (+0.4/day; +0.2/week; -8.4/total)

I really didn't want to post this today because I know it's not correct. I had a crazy schedule yesterday and then didn't sleep very much. My food intake wasn't crazy and there is no reason for a gain today. Tomorrow will be a better day for sure!

Blah - I hate that number.

Day 43

Weight: 153.6 (-0.2/day; -0.2/week; -8.8/total)

Well I took that last few days off (as I said I was going to) and now it's back to the grind. I did well yesterday but knew I would be over and didn't want to see it. I figured it was better for my motivation not to see what the scale said till today.

I have been splurging a lot this month. I need to get back to good and continue my journey to get back to my goal. Luckily even in my splurging I have been able to maintain between the losing. There is something to be said for that.

I ended up going to California for that day trip with Dave and obviously didn't eat well. I also started not feeling well yesterday. I have been spending all this time trying to make Dave feel better (he has a cold) and I think it started heading my way. Either way, I took some Nyquil last night and went to sleep. I slept a LONG time and now I'm feeling better today.

Day 42

No Weigh In - No Post

Day 41

No Weigh In - No Post

Day 40

Weight: 153.8 (-0.0/day; -0.2/week; -8.6/total)

OK well this is a weird week for sure. I didn't manage to weigh in yesterday or post. I was working 15hrs and just forgot to weigh in before I started eating. I came home and immediately fell asleep. I got up this afternoon, cleaned, showered, weighed (yay), and then pigged out on pizza and wings during the Monday Night Football double header.

In about 3hrs I have to get ready to leave to go to California (Hollywood) for the day. Dave has another delivery to do so we are headed that way. I have slept some and he is sleeping now. Either way, it will be another no weigh-in day and probably a high calorie one too. I figure that come Wednesday I will be back on track and ready to kick these next few pounds to the curb!

Day 39

No Weigh In - No post

Day 38

Weight: 153.8 (+0.6/day; -0.2/week; -8.6/total)

Yo-yo much? I can't really blame anything or anyone but myself here though. As I said before I have been having some problems with staying on track and ultimately, that was the case again yesterday. Someone brought in cookies and muffins and licorice to thank us for what we do everyday (as a 9-11 tribute) so I had 2 cookies and some licorice. Then for lunch I was running late and ended up going to get some sushi which means I have no idea how many points/calories I had for the day but I definitely went over.

Today and tomorrow I am going to try to be good but with that being said, I am also working a LOT of overtime and we know how that goes. Blah. I am just going to try to do the best that I can. *Fingers crossed!*

Day 37

Weight: 153.2 (-1.0/day; -0.8/week; -9.2/total)

See what happens when I am good? OK some of that was due to an upset stomach but even still... Yay! I don't want to go back to the 154's. I want to stay on track and continue losing. I am determined to be my thin-self again. I want to be able to fit in my clothes and feel comfortable in my skin. I am getting there.

Now I'm off to finish getting ready for work since I am running late...

Day 36

Weight: 154.2 (+0.2/day; +0.2/week; -8.2/total)

I'm very disappointed. Not from the gain. Truthfully I am very content with the gain only being 0.2 lbs. It should be more. I am disappointed in myself. I am not sure what happened but over the last 3 days I have somehow lost the big picture about everything. My weight and my finances.

My annoying addictive personality has taken over and my one day of gambling success led to me trying again and losing. Blah. It means that I no longer have the extra money that I was going to have this pay day (tomorrow) that would help me stay in the red during my vacation time. Instead now I am broke before the pay day has even come. Grrrr

As for my weight, I just haven't been in control this week at all. I didn't even want to weigh in at all today. I didn't track my points yesterday either. I just lost my focus. I need to get back on track before my vacation begins on Monday or I am not going to be able to STAY on track during those 10 days off. I have found that going to work actually helps me stay on a schedule that helps me control when, where, and what I eat. (As long as my work days aren't too long. lol)

Day 35

Weight: 154.0 (-0.0/day; -1.0/week; -8.4/total)

I had yet another crazy schedule day and my food choices were poor. I can't even begin to honestly track the points I consumed as a result. Waking up and seeing that I didn't gain today is such a relief! I can't even begin to explain it.

It's crazy how I could have such a motivational moment in this week and then have a few days that just throw it out of whack. I am happy it still registers as a 1 lb loss for the week.

I went out gambling last night and happily won some money. It's just enough to put me back in the black and let me go and get my nails done and a pedicure. I'm going to finish getting dressed and then head to the bank and nail salon. I have to work for 2 hrs tonight as well. I go in at 6pm till 8pm. I plan on finishing my book tonight and starting the next one of the series. Counting today, only 5 days till 10 days off! Yay!

Day 34

Weight: 154.0 (+0.6/day; -1.0/week; -8.4/total)

Oops. That's pretty much all I can say about it. My whole flipping schedule yesterday was a cluster and my eating habits suffered as a result. I am just trying to not get discouraged and get myself back on track over the next day or so before I go back to work on Thursday. I am still excited that I have lost 1 lb for the week so far and I plan on getting my self back to those 153's quickly.

Today I am cleaning my house minimally and going to make dinner for me and Dave. I am going to throw in a few loads of laundry for towels and sheets and stuff and then just chill out and finish my book and watch some TV. You know, relax.

Day 33

Weight: 153.4 (-0.6/day; -1.6/week; -9.0/total)

I'm in shock. More than I can express. I am so overjoyed to see continued results each day. It's really very promising. Also just to note, I took my weigh-in earlier today than normal. Dave and I had decided we would go up to the mountains today for a hike early this morning before it turned hot out so we both went to sleep somewhere around 2-3am and woke up around 7am to get ready to leave. So instead of my 10 or 11am weighing it was at 7am instead.

After hiking we did some shopping and had lunch. We went to Sweet Tomatoes and I had some splurges... yes there was the salad but also a muffin, corn bread, etc. It was very yummy! I have no idea how many calories I had though. I just figure I will do an even 20 points for my lunch (which is an exaggeration I'm sure!). I'll also factor in some activity points which will help as well.

I just got home and now that I have changed and cooled down some I realized I am EXHAUSTED! I only had about 4 hrs of sleep last night so that's expected. I have to work tonight too at 1am so a nap is going to be mandatory before then.

I'm off to watch some TV and unwind.

Day 32

Weight: 154.0 (-0.6/day; -1.0/week; -8.4/total)

I really really get more and more motivated by days like today! Yesterday was a very long day. I ended up staying late for OT and then later even still when they asked me to stay again. When I did finally get off at 5am I still needed to go and pick up Dave from the bar and take him home.

I ended up sleeping pretty well but I've woken up late and I still am not ready for work and have to leave here in a few. Yikes.

I didn't eat anything crazy yesterday and added hot sauce to lots of things. I'm pretty hungry right now and still have so much to do.

OH and I hit my 5% goal!!!! Did you see that?!? Yay! I hope it is permanent. Now I am only 1.6 lbs away from losing 10 lbs so far! This is a good good day!

Day 31

Weight: 154.6 (-0.4/day; -0.4/week; -7.8/total)

That just feels right! I am hoping for it to continue to decline for the next couple of days. I will be able to reach my next mini goal of a loss of 5% of my weight in 0.4lbs. That's awesome. I'm hoping for the best.

This going back to work thing has been grueling. Not sure what happened but it's been CRAZY busy. I know it's a holiday weekend to the crazies come out but sheesh! I was exhausted by the time I got off last night. I had some fun in between as well but I was ready for the night to end. Here's hoping tonight will be fun!

I have been doing OK with my meals but I am still going over slightly each day on my points and tapping into the weekly ones. I am not sure why but it seems to be aiding in the weight loss. Maybe it's because I am awake more than a normal person and have crazy hours. Maybe that means I do have to have more points to balance out the waking period. Who knows.

I let myself have a Grande Pumpkin Spice Latte (non-fat & no whip of course) yesterday. It was my first one of the season and it was fantastic! However, when I got home I calculated the points (which I knew were going to be slightly high) and found that it was worth 5 points. Yikes! It's not a huge amount but it's certainly a splurge only type of treat!

Day 30

Weight: 155.0 (-0.0/day; -0.0/week; -7.4/total)

Well it seems I am at a bit of a stall, but I do have to say, if I have to stall, I like where it's at! I know that I still have a very looooooooooong way to go to hit my goal but progress is progress and overall I have lost over 7 lbs. I'm also keeping in mind that I am super bloated and feel yucky cause of my period. I figure that once this passes I will see even more results.

I am still looking at the big picture and happy to see results. I am still looking into supplement options to start on my vacation. Haven't decided on anything just yet. I saw a product called Sensa that says you just sprinkle the supplement on your food and it helped people lose 30 lbs on average in 6 months without changing their diet or exercise. That's an average of 5 lbs per month which I am already losing on my own. I can't decide if this would help me since my issue isn't over-eating so to speak. That's what WW's already helps with. I don't sit around starving by any means. I get to have whatever I want in moderation. So it's back to the research...

Day 29

Weight 155.0 (-0.0/day; -0.0/week; -7.4/total)

I am very pleased to see that. I was concerned all day yesterday that I was going to go up again today and I was thrilled to see that didn't happen.

On a different note, I didn't sleep that well last night. Was kind of tossing and turning and my stomach was upset. It wasn't pretty. Then all of a sudden as I was getting up for real and going to take a shower, my TOM finally decided to appear. While I am glad that I don't have to wonder anymore when it is going to show up, I am not thrilled that it has decided to come on my very first day back to work. I'm all sorts of crampy and uncomfortable. It's miserable. I'll make the most of it though.

I'm trying to figure out how to plan my meals for the day. Normally I check to see what time my lunch is for the day but since I was gone for the week, I have no idea. It's not that major of a situation but I have yet to decide what times I want to eat yet today. Or more importantly, what to eat.

Day 28

Weight: 155.0 (-0.4/day; -1.4/week; -7.4/total)

After a week that included so many days with no movement I have to say these last 2 days have been very exciting! I actually had a moment where the scale said 154.8 but I just didn't feel ready for that. Silly huh? I was so in shock when I saw the 155.0 number that I really couldn't fathom the 154's. I want them, trust me. And I am being really good trying to get there but I just didn't expect 2 big loss days in a row so I wasn't prepared. I was fully expecting an increase today when I woke up cause I was sure that yesterday's big drop was a fluke.

I have decided that I think spicy foods before bedtime help burn calories. I don't know why but it seems like if I have something small with hot sauce before I go to sleep I wake up with results. I'll continue to test this theory. I also woke up very hungry this morning. I'm off to make some cereal and start my last day of vacation before I go back to work. I need to do laundry and clean a bit so I am all ready for the 2 weeks.

Oh and to update on the previous post from yesterday, I broke down and bought/took the pregnancy test and it came back negative. Just my body being difficult I guess.