As I am closing in on the end of my first month of being back on the bandwagon of weight loss, I am starting to evaluate how I want to best kick start month #2. Yes, I still have 5 more days to make a difference. But let's say I lost 7 lbs this month. At this rate I will need to continue for 5 more months to get to my goal. That's fine and great but we all know that it's not very likely that I will lose at this pace for each month. And, let's face it, we all like to see some kick starts here and there!
So my original plan was to continue doing what I am until my next vacation which begins in about 2 weeks on Monday, September 13th. Then I had decided I would do the 14-day burn and cleanse from QuickTrim. I had read some reviews a few weeks ago about it and mainly it said that it definitely would make you a bit jittery which is why I was going to start it on my vacation. It says that even without exercise it burns an additional 8000 calories per month. That in and of itself is 2 more pounds per month then doing nothing.
Well, today I decided to look into it again. I already knew that the diet plan that goes with it was insanely strict and I had no intentions of doing it at all. I was just going to take the pills and enjoy my extra 2lbs of a loss for the month as a result. As I was going back through different websites to see reviews I noticed that the ratings of the product were very very low. Everyone posted how sick they became. They were jittery, couldn't keep food down, had migraines, etc. Most said they quit the product in the first couple of days. It doesn't have any sort of return policy either. Even more confusing than that is that every site said that there is nothing listed in the ingredients that shows why it should work at all. That's not very promising. So I have decided that QuickTrim is not the way to go for me.
Now I have to find something new to try. I just don't know what just yet.
On a total side note, I never did start my period. It's been 41 days since my last one. I have had some fairly irregular cycles this year overall but even still, I can't help but think this has something to do with the hCG. It says it's made with the same hormone from pregnant women so maybe my body thinks it's preggo and that's why I'm having a delay. Who knows. I only took the drops for a week or so and I am pretty confident I am not pregnant.
Ugh, ok so now here I sit stressing about it. I have had 2 very weird periods since the last time I had sex. If I were to be pregnant it means I am about 2 1/2 months along. Don't you think I'd know?! Last time I was pregnant I didn't know but I found out so quickly on accident. I also had a very quick miscarriage. I don't really know what I would compare it to at all. Crap! Now I'm all paranoid about it. Not that it would be bad if I was, but confusing all the same. Oooh and it means I have to stop eating raw sushi and caffeine. Maybe I should go and get a test...
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Day 27
Weight: 155.4 (-1.0/day; -1.0/week; -7.0/total)
OH MY! Wow... I was fairly speechless this morning when I stepped on the scale. I know that yesterday I said I felt a good day coming but then I had some interesting food choices yesterday that made me think that I might not. Wow! I hit my mini goal of 155's!!!! Yay!!!!
Dave called and asked me to go have Sushi with him. He knows I am dieting but sushi with him equals all you can eat. I prepped him that he was going to have to eat a hell of a lot of our meal. I went and had a very good meal and it was all very tasty! I didn't eat an insane amount and I made sure to couple it with water and lots of spicy items (cause I heard somewhere that spicy foods cause you to burn more calories - don't take my word for that though). Either way, I didn't eat a lot before or after and so I am pretty sure I was still close to my daily points even with my splurge.
I also have been having some problems with regularity as well so I took something for that yesterday as well. I am not sure that the number above will stay there. I wouldn't be shocked if it went up some tomorrow but I sure hope it doesn't. I am going to be super good today!
OH MY! Wow... I was fairly speechless this morning when I stepped on the scale. I know that yesterday I said I felt a good day coming but then I had some interesting food choices yesterday that made me think that I might not. Wow! I hit my mini goal of 155's!!!! Yay!!!!
Dave called and asked me to go have Sushi with him. He knows I am dieting but sushi with him equals all you can eat. I prepped him that he was going to have to eat a hell of a lot of our meal. I went and had a very good meal and it was all very tasty! I didn't eat an insane amount and I made sure to couple it with water and lots of spicy items (cause I heard somewhere that spicy foods cause you to burn more calories - don't take my word for that though). Either way, I didn't eat a lot before or after and so I am pretty sure I was still close to my daily points even with my splurge.
I also have been having some problems with regularity as well so I took something for that yesterday as well. I am not sure that the number above will stay there. I wouldn't be shocked if it went up some tomorrow but I sure hope it doesn't. I am going to be super good today!
Monday, August 30, 2010
Day 26
Weight: 156.4 (-0.4/day; -0.0/week; -6.0/total)
Yay! I like to see positive results. I am trying not to get discouraged since this is the weight I started the week at but at least it's not MORE. I have 3 more days to focus and see results for the week.
I also still believe I am going to have big results for tomorrow as well. I can't explain why exactly but I just feel it. I sure hope I'm right.
As for today, nothing big planned. I am about to jump through a shower and then run to the store and to mail off my FedEx. Then it's back home to soak up the final days of my vacation. 3 more days till work. I should really do my laundry today as well.
It was so nice yesterday (and supposed to be the same today) that I had the doors open all day long and it was just beautiful. After my shower I plan to do the same again today if it's nice again.
Yay! I like to see positive results. I am trying not to get discouraged since this is the weight I started the week at but at least it's not MORE. I have 3 more days to focus and see results for the week.
I also still believe I am going to have big results for tomorrow as well. I can't explain why exactly but I just feel it. I sure hope I'm right.
As for today, nothing big planned. I am about to jump through a shower and then run to the store and to mail off my FedEx. Then it's back home to soak up the final days of my vacation. 3 more days till work. I should really do my laundry today as well.
It was so nice yesterday (and supposed to be the same today) that I had the doors open all day long and it was just beautiful. After my shower I plan to do the same again today if it's nice again.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Day 25
Weight: 156.8 (-0.0/day; +0.4/week; -5.6/week)
Deja Vu? Blah. Well, honestly, I feel like I was right on the cusp of a big break through. I just feel it. Tomorrow will be a very good day!
I went to sleep early last night and am up very early today as a result. It's a beautiful morning and I have the doors open with the sun shining through. It's just lovely!
I called the court and found out that my group of Jurors was dismissed so I no longer have Jury Duty in the morning. Yay!
On a not-so-positive note, I was starting to get excited because I realized that I had an extra $200 that should appear on my next check due to some holiday pay... I was going to finally give myself a reward and get my hair done and buy new tennis shoes instead of putting that extra money tows my credit cards like I do with every other cent I make. That was what I was GOING to do. Till, I opened my mail today and see that my registration is due and that it's an absurdly high amount of $442! Ugh. I'm not even sure at the moment where I think I am going to get that kind of money. I have to work out some sort of money magic. I'm sure I will find a way; I always do!
Deja Vu? Blah. Well, honestly, I feel like I was right on the cusp of a big break through. I just feel it. Tomorrow will be a very good day!
I went to sleep early last night and am up very early today as a result. It's a beautiful morning and I have the doors open with the sun shining through. It's just lovely!
I called the court and found out that my group of Jurors was dismissed so I no longer have Jury Duty in the morning. Yay!
On a not-so-positive note, I was starting to get excited because I realized that I had an extra $200 that should appear on my next check due to some holiday pay... I was going to finally give myself a reward and get my hair done and buy new tennis shoes instead of putting that extra money tows my credit cards like I do with every other cent I make. That was what I was GOING to do. Till, I opened my mail today and see that my registration is due and that it's an absurdly high amount of $442! Ugh. I'm not even sure at the moment where I think I am going to get that kind of money. I have to work out some sort of money magic. I'm sure I will find a way; I always do!
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Day 24
Weight: 156.8 (-0.0/day; +0.4/week; -5.6/week)
I still ended up going over my points yesterday by 2. I need to get this under control. I am glad there wasn't a gain but I am just flirting with disaster day after day.
I did keep a list of the calories I took in over the day and found that based on the 20 points that I am supposed to have per day, I was pretty close to 1100-1200 calories. So I guess there is some method to this madness! lol
I haven't been active at all during this vacation. It's gotten to the point that I am having body pain due to inactivity. Tomorrow is supposed to be really nice out and I think I might be able to go to the park and walk without dying from heat exhaustion. I also am half cleaning around my home today.
The game is on in a few hours and I told Dave he could come over to watch it here. I don't know if he will but if he does I don't want it to look like this. Not that it's horrible but it could be better.
I still ended up going over my points yesterday by 2. I need to get this under control. I am glad there wasn't a gain but I am just flirting with disaster day after day.
I did keep a list of the calories I took in over the day and found that based on the 20 points that I am supposed to have per day, I was pretty close to 1100-1200 calories. So I guess there is some method to this madness! lol
I haven't been active at all during this vacation. It's gotten to the point that I am having body pain due to inactivity. Tomorrow is supposed to be really nice out and I think I might be able to go to the park and walk without dying from heat exhaustion. I also am half cleaning around my home today.
The game is on in a few hours and I told Dave he could come over to watch it here. I don't know if he will but if he does I don't want it to look like this. Not that it's horrible but it could be better.
Friday, August 27, 2010
Calculators
So far today I have been doing some research. I was catching up on my Hungry Girl e-mails and was hoping to find some food creation inspirations. I ended up finding links to websites that calculate your Basal Metabolic Rate and Daily Caloric Expenditure.
Here is what I learned about me:
Basal Metabolic Rate: 1458 calories
Daily Caloric Expenditure: 1590 calories
What does that mean? Well, ultimately it means that in a normal day I burn 1590 calories just being me. No exercise.
I know that the key to losing weight is to burn more calories then you consume. For each 3500 calories less that a person consumes, a pound is lost. Basically, if I cut my calorie intake to about 1100 calories per day, I can lose a pound per week.
Here's the problem with that... On weight watchers I don't know how many calories I am consuming per day. I know the points but the calories are lost on me. I'm going to try to count my calories here today and see how they balance with my points.
Here is what I learned about me:
Basal Metabolic Rate: 1458 calories
Daily Caloric Expenditure: 1590 calories
What does that mean? Well, ultimately it means that in a normal day I burn 1590 calories just being me. No exercise.
I know that the key to losing weight is to burn more calories then you consume. For each 3500 calories less that a person consumes, a pound is lost. Basically, if I cut my calorie intake to about 1100 calories per day, I can lose a pound per week.
Here's the problem with that... On weight watchers I don't know how many calories I am consuming per day. I know the points but the calories are lost on me. I'm going to try to count my calories here today and see how they balance with my points.
Day 23
Weight: 156.8 (+0.6/day; +0.4/week; -5.6/total)
*Sigh*
There is nothing to blame for today's gain but myself. Even after I posted that blog last night about being nervous for today and being over by 5 points, I STILL ended up eating 5 more points before I went to sleep. I did drink the 4 cups of water that I said I wanted to consume but ...
I also took that sleeping pill and boy did I sleep! I didn't actually get out of bed till almost 2pm. Yikes! I did finally get out of bed and take a shower. Now I'm all crampy again and figure my period should be starting any moment now!
Today I plan on just relaxing. I'd like to start my next book and just enjoy my home today. Tomorrow I'm going to have to do things like laundry and cleaning my bathroom.
*Sigh*
There is nothing to blame for today's gain but myself. Even after I posted that blog last night about being nervous for today and being over by 5 points, I STILL ended up eating 5 more points before I went to sleep. I did drink the 4 cups of water that I said I wanted to consume but ...
I also took that sleeping pill and boy did I sleep! I didn't actually get out of bed till almost 2pm. Yikes! I did finally get out of bed and take a shower. Now I'm all crampy again and figure my period should be starting any moment now!
Today I plan on just relaxing. I'd like to start my next book and just enjoy my home today. Tomorrow I'm going to have to do things like laundry and cleaning my bathroom.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Nervous
I know that I have seen results over the last few days but I have also gone over my daily points for the last few days as well. I ended up going over by 5 points today already and I am fairly nervous that I just might gain tomorrow. I really hope not but I can't help but be concerned. I have realized that I haven't had enough water today so I am determined to have 4 cups more before I go to sleep tonight. I also picked up some sleep aids at the store tonight so I am thinking about taking those as well so I can get a great nights sleep as well.
Also on a side note, I think I might be starting my TOM here soon. I was cramping a bit earlier and I am certainly due.
Also on a side note, I think I might be starting my TOM here soon. I was cramping a bit earlier and I am certainly due.
Day 22
Weight: 156.2 (-0.2/day; -0.2/week; -6.2/total)
Yay! I see that it's not a huge drop but it's a drop and I am excited! I am comfortable believing that the 156.4 was real and not a glitch. It also means I am very close to my next mini goal of the 155's! I am very excited about that. This excitement is what fuels me to stay on track.
As for today, I am already done doing my hair and makeup and presentable. I'm going to go pay a visit to my family since I've been neglecting them lately. Then I plan to come home and do a whole lotta nothing. I think Dave is going to ask me to come over and hang out with him and the kids but not sure about that.
I'm off to start running around before it gets even more hot! I am ready for winter!
Yay! I see that it's not a huge drop but it's a drop and I am excited! I am comfortable believing that the 156.4 was real and not a glitch. It also means I am very close to my next mini goal of the 155's! I am very excited about that. This excitement is what fuels me to stay on track.
As for today, I am already done doing my hair and makeup and presentable. I'm going to go pay a visit to my family since I've been neglecting them lately. Then I plan to come home and do a whole lotta nothing. I think Dave is going to ask me to come over and hang out with him and the kids but not sure about that.
I'm off to start running around before it gets even more hot! I am ready for winter!
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Day 21
Weight: 156.4 (-0.4/day; -0.8/week; -6.0/total)
I'm pretty shocked to see that number today. I did splurge some yesterday and use some of my weekly points to compensate. I also was up for a very long time the last couple of days so I have needed to eat more than my normal point allowance.
When I got home from work at 6am I also had to eat again and wasn't sure if I was sabotaging myself but the results seem to be positive for the time being. I am making progress in the right direction. I don't want to go up anymore from here. I want to continue to take the right path and continue to lose.
I never did start my time of the month last week. I think I was ovulating instead. My body is so out of whack, I never know.
For now, I am 1/2 pound away from the 155's! I super excited to see me continue dropping. Today is the 3-week mark and I have lost 6lbs that I never want to see again! It's an average of 2lbs per week. If I could continue with 2lbs per week I'd be ecstatic but I know that's not exactly realistic. I just need to remember to stay on track and keep focused.
My goal at this point is to make it through the next 2 1/2 weeks like this. Then, on Monday, Sept 13th, I plan to use QuickTrim to help aid in some metabolism boosting. It's a 14 day program and I will have 10 of them off work to adjust.
I have 3 hours of OT this evening and then the rest of my vacation is mine!
I'm pretty shocked to see that number today. I did splurge some yesterday and use some of my weekly points to compensate. I also was up for a very long time the last couple of days so I have needed to eat more than my normal point allowance.
When I got home from work at 6am I also had to eat again and wasn't sure if I was sabotaging myself but the results seem to be positive for the time being. I am making progress in the right direction. I don't want to go up anymore from here. I want to continue to take the right path and continue to lose.
I never did start my time of the month last week. I think I was ovulating instead. My body is so out of whack, I never know.
For now, I am 1/2 pound away from the 155's! I super excited to see me continue dropping. Today is the 3-week mark and I have lost 6lbs that I never want to see again! It's an average of 2lbs per week. If I could continue with 2lbs per week I'd be ecstatic but I know that's not exactly realistic. I just need to remember to stay on track and keep focused.
My goal at this point is to make it through the next 2 1/2 weeks like this. Then, on Monday, Sept 13th, I plan to use QuickTrim to help aid in some metabolism boosting. It's a 14 day program and I will have 10 of them off work to adjust.
I have 3 hours of OT this evening and then the rest of my vacation is mine!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Day 20
Weight: 156.8 (-0.6/day; -0.4/week; -5.6/total)
I'd be lying if I didn't say I was shocked by that number. Pleasantly shocked. I was on track with my point but ended up staying up later than I had planned and became really hungry at 4am. I decided that since I was tired I would just have a granola bar and go to sleep. Which I did. Then I got woken up at 8am by a phone call and was still so hungry. So I had one of my chimichanga things (5 pts). I did weigh myself before hand and had a weight of 157.4 again. I went back to sleep afterward and just woke up and weighed again (expecting that it would be more and I'd use the 157.4) and look at that! Yay!
I'd also be lying a bit if I didn't mention that I am starting to get frustrated with the slow progress. I needed to see some improvements today and I'm thankful that I did.
I cleaned my kitchen and dining room yesterday. They look very nice! Now it's on my living room and entry way today. If I start having LOTS of energy I will add my bathroom to that list.
I have overtime tonight at 1:15am-5:45am. I'm hoping that won't add to any sabotage. Time for some coffee, soaps, and cleaning.
I'd be lying if I didn't say I was shocked by that number. Pleasantly shocked. I was on track with my point but ended up staying up later than I had planned and became really hungry at 4am. I decided that since I was tired I would just have a granola bar and go to sleep. Which I did. Then I got woken up at 8am by a phone call and was still so hungry. So I had one of my chimichanga things (5 pts). I did weigh myself before hand and had a weight of 157.4 again. I went back to sleep afterward and just woke up and weighed again (expecting that it would be more and I'd use the 157.4) and look at that! Yay!
I'd also be lying a bit if I didn't mention that I am starting to get frustrated with the slow progress. I needed to see some improvements today and I'm thankful that I did.
I cleaned my kitchen and dining room yesterday. They look very nice! Now it's on my living room and entry way today. If I start having LOTS of energy I will add my bathroom to that list.
I have overtime tonight at 1:15am-5:45am. I'm hoping that won't add to any sabotage. Time for some coffee, soaps, and cleaning.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Day 19
Weight: 157.4 (+0.4/day; +0.2/week; -5.0/total)
Well something happened yesterday. I had a moment of weakness and basically had a binge day. It wasn't pretty. I did fairly well during the day but when I got home I just shovelled food down my throat. Lots of it. It was insane! I just splurged and splurged. I can't even begin to try to track what my real point intake for the day was. That moment is EXACTLY why I have to stop working 15hr days. I am trying to not get discouraged and get back on track. Blah.
I am technically on vacation. I do have a few hours of overtime over the next couple days but nothing too bad. I was actually supposed to have 2hrs of OT tonight but I found out legally I wasn't allowed to take all 3 days. Even though I have 4 other days off this week I am technically getting paid for them so I can't have 7 paid days in a work week. Whatever, it doesn't really matter, I gave up today cause it was only 2hrs and the other days are 4 & 3hrs.
I am kind of glad to have today off. I would ideally like to get my life together today so I can enjoy the next 10 days off (minus 7hrs of OT).
I need to plan out my meals for the day... need to stay on track and make some progress over this time!
Well something happened yesterday. I had a moment of weakness and basically had a binge day. It wasn't pretty. I did fairly well during the day but when I got home I just shovelled food down my throat. Lots of it. It was insane! I just splurged and splurged. I can't even begin to try to track what my real point intake for the day was. That moment is EXACTLY why I have to stop working 15hr days. I am trying to not get discouraged and get back on track. Blah.
I am technically on vacation. I do have a few hours of overtime over the next couple days but nothing too bad. I was actually supposed to have 2hrs of OT tonight but I found out legally I wasn't allowed to take all 3 days. Even though I have 4 other days off this week I am technically getting paid for them so I can't have 7 paid days in a work week. Whatever, it doesn't really matter, I gave up today cause it was only 2hrs and the other days are 4 & 3hrs.
I am kind of glad to have today off. I would ideally like to get my life together today so I can enjoy the next 10 days off (minus 7hrs of OT).
I need to plan out my meals for the day... need to stay on track and make some progress over this time!
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Day 18
Weight: 157.0 (+0.6/day; -0.2/week; -5.4/total)
I'm honestly not as upset as I should be about that number. I am writing it off to the fact that I am just weighing in earlier than normal and lack of sleep. I feel like it's something that will regulate itself by the end of the day. With that being said, today is another one of those screwy days that are going to be all out of whack. I have to leave in a moment for a 15hr shift at work. 2hrs of that will be lunches but still. It's a long day and I'm going to do my best to stay on track.
I'm honestly not as upset as I should be about that number. I am writing it off to the fact that I am just weighing in earlier than normal and lack of sleep. I feel like it's something that will regulate itself by the end of the day. With that being said, today is another one of those screwy days that are going to be all out of whack. I have to leave in a moment for a 15hr shift at work. 2hrs of that will be lunches but still. It's a long day and I'm going to do my best to stay on track.
Uh oh
OK well, when I work a lot of overtime and with screwy hours it's hard to keep my meals on track correctly. Not that I went over that much today (I am over by 1.5 points - which I have plenty of for my weekly) but I ate them just a few moments ago and I have to get up early to be back at work by 10am. That means there aren't that many hours left for me to be able to burn my meal off. I certainly hope it all works out! Off to sleep for a few mins before starting my 15hr shift tomorrow...
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Day 17
Weight: 156.4 (-0.8/day; -0.8/week; -6.0/total)
156's! Yay! It is long overdue! I will admit that I did have a small game of scale wars this morning though. When I first stepped on it said 157.0 and I wanted to scream. I decided to reweigh myself with a candle that is about 3lbs just to see it move. Then I put the candle down and reweighed and it was much lower. I didn't really feel comfortable with that though so I decided to finish getting ready and doing my hair, etc before trying again for a more accurate number. That's when I got 156.4. I don't know if it's a fluke and will possibly be more tomorrow but honestly, I have worked really hard and it SHOULD be the 156.4 so that's what I am using. I certainly hope this means I have broke out of my slump and back on the move towards my ultimate goal.
Today I have to hurry up and head over to Verizon. Last night after I got home, I was playing with my phone and then all of a sudden it froze. I'm not sure what happened but now it won't start up. It won't even let me do a hard reset on it. It's rather frustrating. I don't even really like being a slave to a phone but I certainly don't like that I don't have one at all! So now it's off to see the technician before work. Good times!
156's! Yay! It is long overdue! I will admit that I did have a small game of scale wars this morning though. When I first stepped on it said 157.0 and I wanted to scream. I decided to reweigh myself with a candle that is about 3lbs just to see it move. Then I put the candle down and reweighed and it was much lower. I didn't really feel comfortable with that though so I decided to finish getting ready and doing my hair, etc before trying again for a more accurate number. That's when I got 156.4. I don't know if it's a fluke and will possibly be more tomorrow but honestly, I have worked really hard and it SHOULD be the 156.4 so that's what I am using. I certainly hope this means I have broke out of my slump and back on the move towards my ultimate goal.
Today I have to hurry up and head over to Verizon. Last night after I got home, I was playing with my phone and then all of a sudden it froze. I'm not sure what happened but now it won't start up. It won't even let me do a hard reset on it. It's rather frustrating. I don't even really like being a slave to a phone but I certainly don't like that I don't have one at all! So now it's off to see the technician before work. Good times!
Improvements
OK, I am going to HAVE to see results in the morning. I feel it! I did look at the scale just now when I got home and it's at 157.6, well between the food I've had today and not sleeping yet, it just HAS to be lower than 157's, right?! Oh my, it NEEDS to be! I also was below my points by quite a bit today. Not on purpose but since it happened, so be it. Finally, I am also having some tea that will help with regularity. I know part of that seems like cheating but it's really not and it needs to be done. Hell, as a bonus it will help with my water intake! Ha!
Friday, August 20, 2010
Day 16
Weight: 157.2 (-0.0/day; -0.0/week; -5.2/total)
I think the scale is stuck and I don't like it. I know I should be thankful that it isn't going up but honestly I'm frustrated. I'm doing everything right. I'm staying with-in my points, I'm not even using the weekly ones! How is this happening? I did say before that I am PMSing and trust me, I am! But even still! Sheesh.
I am trying not to get discouraged. I'm trying to think of why this is happening and I just don't really have a good answer. I thought maybe it's the Smoothies from Tropical Smoothie. Maybe the nutritional information is wrong, but honestly, I don't think that's it. Those help me make it through the day and are essentially just fruits which are actually good for me. I've also been making sure to get a lot of fiber in my diet as well. I am not sure if that's actually doing the trick though. I didn't drink all of my water for they day yesterday either but I wasn't that far off. I will just have to keep focusing on that.
This is a long uphill battle, I know. I just wish it was as easy to lose the weight as it was to gain it. Even the slow and steady route is taking longer to see results then I expected. 10 pounds a month is seeming a bit more difficult at this rate.
I think the scale is stuck and I don't like it. I know I should be thankful that it isn't going up but honestly I'm frustrated. I'm doing everything right. I'm staying with-in my points, I'm not even using the weekly ones! How is this happening? I did say before that I am PMSing and trust me, I am! But even still! Sheesh.
I am trying not to get discouraged. I'm trying to think of why this is happening and I just don't really have a good answer. I thought maybe it's the Smoothies from Tropical Smoothie. Maybe the nutritional information is wrong, but honestly, I don't think that's it. Those help me make it through the day and are essentially just fruits which are actually good for me. I've also been making sure to get a lot of fiber in my diet as well. I am not sure if that's actually doing the trick though. I didn't drink all of my water for they day yesterday either but I wasn't that far off. I will just have to keep focusing on that.
This is a long uphill battle, I know. I just wish it was as easy to lose the weight as it was to gain it. Even the slow and steady route is taking longer to see results then I expected. 10 pounds a month is seeming a bit more difficult at this rate.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Day 15
Weight: 157.2 (-0.0/day; -0.0/week; -5.2/total)
No news is good news? I don't know. I'm fairly frustrated due to the lack of a 156. I'm ready to see the 156! I go back to work today so maybe I will be able to start seeing results again since I will be a bit more active. Not much, but at least I'll be out of the house.
On a positive note, I only have 4 full days of work before my vacation begins. The other 3 days are 2-4 hour shifts so they don't really count. I am really glad to have a few days off. It all helps.
I tried to go to sleep early yesterday with the intention of taking some sleeping pills and sleeping for 12hrs but that didn't happen. First of all because I didn't have any Tylenol PM left. Oops! So I took 2 of the herbal sleep aids I had and woke up at 7:30am or so. That was rough. I finally was able to get back to sleep around 9 or 9:30am and then slept till 11am.
Now it's off to shower and get ready for the work day. I'm also considering calling Lee but I haven't decided completely on that yet. I'm trying to change my opinion about him and maybe that would make all this easier.
No news is good news? I don't know. I'm fairly frustrated due to the lack of a 156. I'm ready to see the 156! I go back to work today so maybe I will be able to start seeing results again since I will be a bit more active. Not much, but at least I'll be out of the house.
On a positive note, I only have 4 full days of work before my vacation begins. The other 3 days are 2-4 hour shifts so they don't really count. I am really glad to have a few days off. It all helps.
I tried to go to sleep early yesterday with the intention of taking some sleeping pills and sleeping for 12hrs but that didn't happen. First of all because I didn't have any Tylenol PM left. Oops! So I took 2 of the herbal sleep aids I had and woke up at 7:30am or so. That was rough. I finally was able to get back to sleep around 9 or 9:30am and then slept till 11am.
Now it's off to shower and get ready for the work day. I'm also considering calling Lee but I haven't decided completely on that yet. I'm trying to change my opinion about him and maybe that would make all this easier.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Hungry
I'm not sure what exactly happened but I've been very hungry today. Lots of cravings and never seem to be full. I'm not really used to this. Maybe it's my metabolism on over-drive. I don't know but I'm incredibly nervous for tomorrow. I was hoping for some great improvement and I'm starting to think I might see an increase instead. I really hope I don't but I am feeling big. Ugh. I also should add in here that I am fairly positive I'm PMSing too. That adds to bloated and weight gain, right? So if that's what the problem is then maybe I shouldn't be so hard on myself. It's not really helping.
I think I'm going to take a sleeping pill tonight and hope the scale gods are good to me in the morning. I'm going to finish another 2 cups of water and maybe a few chapters of my book and sleep for 10hrs or so.
Oh also, I decided to start taking Alli again. I figure it can't hurt. It helped with results before and as long as I remember to take it, it has to aid with my progress this time around too. I certainly don't want to be at a plateau already!
I am about to start work tomorrow for 7 straight days (not all of them full shifts) and then have 7 days off. I'm glad for some real time off.
I think I'm going to take a sleeping pill tonight and hope the scale gods are good to me in the morning. I'm going to finish another 2 cups of water and maybe a few chapters of my book and sleep for 10hrs or so.
Oh also, I decided to start taking Alli again. I figure it can't hurt. It helped with results before and as long as I remember to take it, it has to aid with my progress this time around too. I certainly don't want to be at a plateau already!
I am about to start work tomorrow for 7 straight days (not all of them full shifts) and then have 7 days off. I'm glad for some real time off.
Day 14
Weight: 157.2 (-0.2/day; -2.0/week; -5.2/total)
I was hoping for something a bit more drastic this morning but I feel like tomorrow is going to be a really good day! I've still been very good with my points and even had all my water yesterday too.
I think part of the reason I didn't see big numbers today was because I ate too late. I ended up going out to meet Lee last night and so my schedule got a little out of whack.
It's really nice to have another day off today before going back to work. I am definitely looking forward to start taking all of my days off with more regularity next year. I've been looking at my bills and income and believe I should be completely out of debt by my birthday (if not before with some OT). That's 3 months away and hopefully in those same 3 months I will be able to make it down to my goal weight. 10lbs a month isn't unattainable.
I was hoping for something a bit more drastic this morning but I feel like tomorrow is going to be a really good day! I've still been very good with my points and even had all my water yesterday too.
I think part of the reason I didn't see big numbers today was because I ate too late. I ended up going out to meet Lee last night and so my schedule got a little out of whack.
It's really nice to have another day off today before going back to work. I am definitely looking forward to start taking all of my days off with more regularity next year. I've been looking at my bills and income and believe I should be completely out of debt by my birthday (if not before with some OT). That's 3 months away and hopefully in those same 3 months I will be able to make it down to my goal weight. 10lbs a month isn't unattainable.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Day 13
Weight: 157.4 (+0.4/day; -1.8/week; -5.0/total)
When I woke up today and went to step on the scale I actually thought to myself "I don't feel like a 156." And lo and behold, I'm not. I'm sad about this. Nothing detrimental or diet crashing, but I'm still sad. I ate correctly yesterday and didn't go over my points so I'm a little confused. The only thing that I didn't do correctly was drink my water. It obviously made a difference and I need to be very conscious of that today. I must must must drink my water today! Less diet Snapple and more water.
I really really need to see better numbers tomorrow cause I don't want to go back to a loss below 5lbs! Ever.
Yesterday I did successfully clean my car, get a new book series, and rent a movie. I didn't however clean. I need to get on that today since my dishes really need to get done. Oh I also checked my mail yesterday and realized that I don't do that enough. It seems I have Jury Duty in 2 weeks. I was all excited at first and was hoping it was on one of my regular work days but nope! Not only is it on my regular day off anyway, it's also during my vacation time. I'm not going anywhere but it still is a let down since I couldn't at least get out of work. I would love to be picked for a jury but I am pretty sure that due to my job I get automatically dismissed. I can't imagine that any lawyers want someone that works for the police department on a jury. I'd love to be wrong!
When I woke up today and went to step on the scale I actually thought to myself "I don't feel like a 156." And lo and behold, I'm not. I'm sad about this. Nothing detrimental or diet crashing, but I'm still sad. I ate correctly yesterday and didn't go over my points so I'm a little confused. The only thing that I didn't do correctly was drink my water. It obviously made a difference and I need to be very conscious of that today. I must must must drink my water today! Less diet Snapple and more water.
I really really need to see better numbers tomorrow cause I don't want to go back to a loss below 5lbs! Ever.
Yesterday I did successfully clean my car, get a new book series, and rent a movie. I didn't however clean. I need to get on that today since my dishes really need to get done. Oh I also checked my mail yesterday and realized that I don't do that enough. It seems I have Jury Duty in 2 weeks. I was all excited at first and was hoping it was on one of my regular work days but nope! Not only is it on my regular day off anyway, it's also during my vacation time. I'm not going anywhere but it still is a let down since I couldn't at least get out of work. I would love to be picked for a jury but I am pretty sure that due to my job I get automatically dismissed. I can't imagine that any lawyers want someone that works for the police department on a jury. I'd love to be wrong!
Monday, August 16, 2010
5lbs! and 1 Point!
I didn't mention this before but it's pretty important to make note that I have lost 5lbs! If I could have just done this when I started gaining before I wouldn't be in the predicament that I'm in but at least I am on the right track to get it back to good! *Jumping for Joy!*
I just recalculated my WW website profile so I can get it in line with everything I am doing here with my blog and was so excited to see the cute little 5lb star that I got for my improvement over the last 2 weeks. My weigh-in dates for WW is on Monday's. I figure that's the best day to use since it's the first day of my weekend. If there are any use of weekly points or indulgences I have the rest of the work week to help adjust and show the greatest improvement. That's at least the way I see it. Maybe it's not a rational frame of mind but I like it! haha
I also successfully dropped 1 point on my BMI as well! That's one step closer to no longer being obese! (Well that doesn't sound good! lol)
Here's how the BMI chart works:
• Underweight = <18.5
• Normal weight = 18.5–24.9
• Overweight = 25–29.9
• Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater
I currently am at 31.7. I started at 32.8 so that's promising! Every 5lbs seems to bring it down by another point. I just need to keep going and get back to a healthy level. I'm going to add my next mini goal of 29.9 BMI which will get me out of the Obesity level.
I just recalculated my WW website profile so I can get it in line with everything I am doing here with my blog and was so excited to see the cute little 5lb star that I got for my improvement over the last 2 weeks. My weigh-in dates for WW is on Monday's. I figure that's the best day to use since it's the first day of my weekend. If there are any use of weekly points or indulgences I have the rest of the work week to help adjust and show the greatest improvement. That's at least the way I see it. Maybe it's not a rational frame of mind but I like it! haha
I also successfully dropped 1 point on my BMI as well! That's one step closer to no longer being obese! (Well that doesn't sound good! lol)
Here's how the BMI chart works:
• Underweight = <18.5
• Normal weight = 18.5–24.9
• Overweight = 25–29.9
• Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater
I currently am at 31.7. I started at 32.8 so that's promising! Every 5lbs seems to bring it down by another point. I just need to keep going and get back to a healthy level. I'm going to add my next mini goal of 29.9 BMI which will get me out of the Obesity level.
Day 12
Weight: 157.0 (-1.0/day; -2.2/week; -5.4/total)
Yay!!!! I kind of felt yesterday that it was going to be a big number this morning and look at that! I'm so excited. I love seeing results and knowing that this is all paying off in a big way.
I'm a pound away from my next mini goal of the 155's!
Now it's time for the hard part of dieting. My weekend. I have 3 days off with no plans and need to make sure that I stay on track. I went grocery shopping last night and picked up some things for the next few days. I made sure to get some snack things like popcorn too so that if I have a need to continually pop food in my mouth it can be something less damaging. I did have a little bit of a hard time finding the popcorn I wanted at Walmart though. For some reason they didn't carry the single serving bags. I need to see if I can find them somewhere else so that there isn't an accidental need to eat too much.
I've also decided that I want to take a different diet supplement when I start to plateau. I know which one and figure I can start taking it during my vacation in September. Hopefully I won't plateau before then!
As for the rest of the day, Dave stopped by earlier and we chatted for a bit. I didn't get home from work and shopping till late last night (or early this morning) and so I slept too late. I really want to wash my car and get all the bugs off the front of it from the numerous trips to Utah lately. I bought some things yesterday that should help. I also want to run to the book store and get into a new series of some sort. I am starting to get bored with the current ones I am reading. Finally I want to finish up with cleaning my home.
Then if all that gets done I can just relax the next 2 days and hang out and watch movies and read. It's like a mini-vacation!
Yay!!!! I kind of felt yesterday that it was going to be a big number this morning and look at that! I'm so excited. I love seeing results and knowing that this is all paying off in a big way.
I'm a pound away from my next mini goal of the 155's!
Now it's time for the hard part of dieting. My weekend. I have 3 days off with no plans and need to make sure that I stay on track. I went grocery shopping last night and picked up some things for the next few days. I made sure to get some snack things like popcorn too so that if I have a need to continually pop food in my mouth it can be something less damaging. I did have a little bit of a hard time finding the popcorn I wanted at Walmart though. For some reason they didn't carry the single serving bags. I need to see if I can find them somewhere else so that there isn't an accidental need to eat too much.
I've also decided that I want to take a different diet supplement when I start to plateau. I know which one and figure I can start taking it during my vacation in September. Hopefully I won't plateau before then!
As for the rest of the day, Dave stopped by earlier and we chatted for a bit. I didn't get home from work and shopping till late last night (or early this morning) and so I slept too late. I really want to wash my car and get all the bugs off the front of it from the numerous trips to Utah lately. I bought some things yesterday that should help. I also want to run to the book store and get into a new series of some sort. I am starting to get bored with the current ones I am reading. Finally I want to finish up with cleaning my home.
Then if all that gets done I can just relax the next 2 days and hang out and watch movies and read. It's like a mini-vacation!
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Day 11
Weight: 158.0 (-0.2/day; -1.2/week; -4.4/total)
I just love that I keep losing considering I am not suffering at all. It means a lot! I am really excited that I should see a number in the 157's tomorrow if I don't have any mishaps. (Which I won't!)
I did learn yesterday that I have no impulse control though! Not when it came to food luckily but with work. I know that the reason I am do all this overtime is for the greater good and that soon I plan to be out of credit card debt and I won't have to do this anymore but just because they send a message saying they need someone to come in early or stay late doesn't mean I HAVE to take it. That being said, I did take it without thinking yesterday and that means I have to leave here momentarily for work. Oh well... I am awake, that's something! And more importantly it's my "Friday" and I actually have all 3 of my days off this week! Woohoo
I just love that I keep losing considering I am not suffering at all. It means a lot! I am really excited that I should see a number in the 157's tomorrow if I don't have any mishaps. (Which I won't!)
I did learn yesterday that I have no impulse control though! Not when it came to food luckily but with work. I know that the reason I am do all this overtime is for the greater good and that soon I plan to be out of credit card debt and I won't have to do this anymore but just because they send a message saying they need someone to come in early or stay late doesn't mean I HAVE to take it. That being said, I did take it without thinking yesterday and that means I have to leave here momentarily for work. Oh well... I am awake, that's something! And more importantly it's my "Friday" and I actually have all 3 of my days off this week! Woohoo
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Day 10
Weight: 158.2 (-0.8/day; -1.0/week, -4.2/total)
Woohoo! I know I say that a lot but it's what I'm feeling! I just wanna jump up and down for joy! Yay! I love progress and it's one step closer to the big picture. I can't wait!
On another note, it's another nice morning and I am beyond ready for my vacation to be here! I'm super sleepy today. I know it's because I worked late last night (and actually had to WORK) but some time off will do me some good. Just have to make it through today and tomorrow and then I have my 3 days off. I don't have any OT at all for those 3 days and it will feel like a vacation! I am determined NOT to leave town for any day trips or run around like a chicken with my head cut off. Just 3 days of relaxing! Yup, that sounds PERFECT!
I can't decide why I've been crabby lately. I don't feel that extreme calm like I did last week from the happy pills. When I took them last week I did it with meals. I haven't been doing that this week, maybe I'll try that today.
Woohoo! I know I say that a lot but it's what I'm feeling! I just wanna jump up and down for joy! Yay! I love progress and it's one step closer to the big picture. I can't wait!
On another note, it's another nice morning and I am beyond ready for my vacation to be here! I'm super sleepy today. I know it's because I worked late last night (and actually had to WORK) but some time off will do me some good. Just have to make it through today and tomorrow and then I have my 3 days off. I don't have any OT at all for those 3 days and it will feel like a vacation! I am determined NOT to leave town for any day trips or run around like a chicken with my head cut off. Just 3 days of relaxing! Yup, that sounds PERFECT!
I can't decide why I've been crabby lately. I don't feel that extreme calm like I did last week from the happy pills. When I took them last week I did it with meals. I haven't been doing that this week, maybe I'll try that today.
Ugh!
I ended up staying late at work today and was there for 13.5hrs instead of the regular 10hrs. No big deal normally but WOW! I was verbally assaulted for the entire last 3 hours. It was INSANE. It almost made the OT not worth it since I had multiple people ask for my badge number and name so they could follow up with complaints later. Oh goody! *sigh* What can ya do?
I am trying to unwind quickly so that I can start all over again tomorrow (or later today I guess). I'm just hoping I don't get into too much trouble (if any at all) since the people were SO far beyond reasonable and honestly I was unbelievably nice even though I was screamed at non-stop.
Because I was at work so much later I was rather hungry coming home. I ended up going over by 1.5 points but I have the "weekly" ones that I was able to use to balance it all out so it's all good. I prefer not to use those if I don't have to though.
I'm hopeful it won't be detrimental tomorrow when I weigh in. Time to get some rest...
I am trying to unwind quickly so that I can start all over again tomorrow (or later today I guess). I'm just hoping I don't get into too much trouble (if any at all) since the people were SO far beyond reasonable and honestly I was unbelievably nice even though I was screamed at non-stop.
Because I was at work so much later I was rather hungry coming home. I ended up going over by 1.5 points but I have the "weekly" ones that I was able to use to balance it all out so it's all good. I prefer not to use those if I don't have to though.
I'm hopeful it won't be detrimental tomorrow when I weigh in. Time to get some rest...
Friday, August 13, 2010
Day 9
Weight: 159.0 (-0.6/day; -0.2/week; -3.4/total)
Whew! I was so nervous about today and am very very thankful that I am still below that 160 mark!
Yesterday was nice when it came to my meals since I got to have a variety of foods all in moderation. I do have to admit though that I was pretty tired most of the day at work. I'm not sure what brought that on. It might have been the fractured sleep I had due to the overtime I had yesterday morning. Who knows. I'm hoping for more energy today.
Also on my list of things to be more conscious of is my water intake. For some reason I don't think I had as much as I should have over the last couple of days. I have fallen away from having my 32oz before leaving for work and I need to make sure to keep that habit.
Time to start drinking my water and work on my meal plan for the day!
Whew! I was so nervous about today and am very very thankful that I am still below that 160 mark!
Yesterday was nice when it came to my meals since I got to have a variety of foods all in moderation. I do have to admit though that I was pretty tired most of the day at work. I'm not sure what brought that on. It might have been the fractured sleep I had due to the overtime I had yesterday morning. Who knows. I'm hoping for more energy today.
Also on my list of things to be more conscious of is my water intake. For some reason I don't think I had as much as I should have over the last couple of days. I have fallen away from having my 32oz before leaving for work and I need to make sure to keep that habit.
Time to start drinking my water and work on my meal plan for the day!
Yummy
That's how I feel about my day food-wise. Yummy! I got to eat everything I wanted and I still had 1 point to spare. Now, with that being said, I can't imagine that I didn't gain weight today. I was trying to see how many calories I actually ate in comparison to my points but on the WW website I can't seem to get into any sort of screen that will let me know how many calories I consumed.
I am hopeful that I will see results in the morning but again, between my being able to eat everything I like and want and coming off of the HCG liquid, I just don't know. I need to remember to not get frustrated if I see that 160 number again though.
I need to get to sleep. Until tomorrow...
I am hopeful that I will see results in the morning but again, between my being able to eat everything I like and want and coming off of the HCG liquid, I just don't know. I need to remember to not get frustrated if I see that 160 number again though.
I need to get to sleep. Until tomorrow...
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Tracking
OK so I pulled up my WW account and started tracking. That's a step in the right direction. I planned out my meals for today and still have 5 points that I can use when I get home after work any way I wish. Maybe tracking is key. It will help me be more accountable. Also, it's much easier for me to track now that I am waking up earlier in the mornings before going to work. It gives me time to plan.
Today is my Monday. I have 2 more weeks till Vacation. Well sort of vacation. I have a bunch of overtime on my days off surrounding my "vacation" days so it's cut a little short. I also have a second vacation 2 weeks after I come back from the first one. It all helps although as I said before, I do better with structure of the work week.
I think next week I will go and return the HCG and get my money back.
Today is my Monday. I have 2 more weeks till Vacation. Well sort of vacation. I have a bunch of overtime on my days off surrounding my "vacation" days so it's cut a little short. I also have a second vacation 2 weeks after I come back from the first one. It all helps although as I said before, I do better with structure of the work week.
I think next week I will go and return the HCG and get my money back.
Day 8
Weight: 159.6 (+0.4/day, +0.4/week; -2.8/total)
I figured that since I took 2 days of eating poorly I would have 2 days if increases. Well here ya go! I am not at all happy about it. I actually got on the scale this morning and it said 160.0 but I knew my hair was wet and I couldn't begin to type that I had gone back up to that dreaded number. So, I dried my hair and re-weighed. Somehow that seems like a more manageable number.
I'd be totally lying if I didn't say that I am very very scared about tomorrow. I don't know what to expect at all. I go back to work today and that usually leads to better habits.
It's a new week and part of me is still debating on how I want to proceed with my diet from here. I have my WW on-line subscription. I should really use it. I think I would do better being able to have some of all my cravings in moderation. I need to know that I can lose the weight and keep it off cause I did it the right way. I might still use some supplement items but it still seems like a good option for me. I miss my cereal. I miss my coffee. Although, I am weary about the coffee since it's not cheap and it's definitely be nice not to be out all that money at Starbucks.
Maybe I'll check out Hungry-Girl for some coffee idea swaps. Oh and other recipes!
I'm off to go and have some cereal. I need to remember that if I go up tomorrow though that it's because I'm transitioning off of the HCG. I hope I don't get discouraged. Hell, I hope I don't go up!
I figured that since I took 2 days of eating poorly I would have 2 days if increases. Well here ya go! I am not at all happy about it. I actually got on the scale this morning and it said 160.0 but I knew my hair was wet and I couldn't begin to type that I had gone back up to that dreaded number. So, I dried my hair and re-weighed. Somehow that seems like a more manageable number.
I'd be totally lying if I didn't say that I am very very scared about tomorrow. I don't know what to expect at all. I go back to work today and that usually leads to better habits.
It's a new week and part of me is still debating on how I want to proceed with my diet from here. I have my WW on-line subscription. I should really use it. I think I would do better being able to have some of all my cravings in moderation. I need to know that I can lose the weight and keep it off cause I did it the right way. I might still use some supplement items but it still seems like a good option for me. I miss my cereal. I miss my coffee. Although, I am weary about the coffee since it's not cheap and it's definitely be nice not to be out all that money at Starbucks.
Maybe I'll check out Hungry-Girl for some coffee idea swaps. Oh and other recipes!
I'm off to go and have some cereal. I need to remember that if I go up tomorrow though that it's because I'm transitioning off of the HCG. I hope I don't get discouraged. Hell, I hope I don't go up!
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Day 7
Weight: 159.2 (+1.0/day; -3.2/week; -3.2/total)
Going up for the day was to be expected. The last 2 days have certainly not been diet friendly. I am going to be very good today and stay on track. I am going to do the plan correctly today and get back on track before going back to work tomorrow.
I do have overtime late late late tonight/tomorrow morning. It is going to mess with my 'structure' for the week though since I won't be off till 5:45am. That means even if I come straight home and try to be in bed by 6am, I would only have 5hrs of sleep if I try to be up by 11am. We'll see. I can technically sleep till 2pm if I wanted but again, it leads to me being off track of where I want to be.
I'll keep you posted. As for today, I purchased some hamburger meat last night. I am going to make some taco meat for one of my meals today. I am also going to have some onion soup at some point and some buffalo chicken. I also need to have my grapefruit and orange as well.
For now, I am going to finish up the cleaning of my home and some laundry. I need to get that part of my life on track too. It helps with my mood to be in a clean home!
Going up for the day was to be expected. The last 2 days have certainly not been diet friendly. I am going to be very good today and stay on track. I am going to do the plan correctly today and get back on track before going back to work tomorrow.
I do have overtime late late late tonight/tomorrow morning. It is going to mess with my 'structure' for the week though since I won't be off till 5:45am. That means even if I come straight home and try to be in bed by 6am, I would only have 5hrs of sleep if I try to be up by 11am. We'll see. I can technically sleep till 2pm if I wanted but again, it leads to me being off track of where I want to be.
I'll keep you posted. As for today, I purchased some hamburger meat last night. I am going to make some taco meat for one of my meals today. I am also going to have some onion soup at some point and some buffalo chicken. I also need to have my grapefruit and orange as well.
For now, I am going to finish up the cleaning of my home and some laundry. I need to get that part of my life on track too. It helps with my mood to be in a clean home!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Day 6
Weight: 158.2 (-0.0/day, -4.2/week; -4.2/total)
Yippee! With everything that I have ate in the last 2 days I am super excited to see that. I have had some fun, gotten some of my food cravings met, and still managed to stay on track.
I'm still exhausted. I slept a couple of hours but I didn't want to completely screw up my sleep schedule so I forced myself awake. I just took some of the HCG drops and going to drink some water in a few mins. I'm very thirsty. I didn't drink very much water of the last 24hrs. I'm about to fix that.
I originally thought that I had to go into work at 3:45am but it turns out that's not till tomorrow. I am very happy to have another day off to relax and just enjoy me.
Yippee! With everything that I have ate in the last 2 days I am super excited to see that. I have had some fun, gotten some of my food cravings met, and still managed to stay on track.
I'm still exhausted. I slept a couple of hours but I didn't want to completely screw up my sleep schedule so I forced myself awake. I just took some of the HCG drops and going to drink some water in a few mins. I'm very thirsty. I didn't drink very much water of the last 24hrs. I'm about to fix that.
I originally thought that I had to go into work at 3:45am but it turns out that's not till tomorrow. I am very happy to have another day off to relax and just enjoy me.
Exhausted
...that's an understatement. We just got back from the road trip and I had a really good time. We laughed and sang songs the whole way there and back.
For some reason right before we left I had an intense dizzy spell. When we were leaving town we stopped at the convenience store and I decided to grab a croissant. I figured some sort of bread would help regulate whatever was causing the spell. It did work for a brief amount of time but the dizziness came back again shortly after.
We stopped for breakfast 1/2 way there and I ate a sandwich to help balance out my sugar levels or whatever it is that is causing the dizzy spells. It did OK for a little while but then they came back a 3rd time once we reached our destination. Finally it surpassed on the way back home. Dave is worried about me and thinks I should go to a doctor but they aren't going to be able to figure anything out if I am not currently having the spells when I am there. I figure I will wait it out a few days and see how things go.
I feel fat today. I'm sure it's all this bad eating that I have been doing. I said before I don't believe in posting my weight till after I sleep but I did just step on the scale and was pleased to see 158.8. That's before I even have time to sleep. I'm not using that number yet though. I'm going to go and pass out and see what happens when I wake up.
For some reason right before we left I had an intense dizzy spell. When we were leaving town we stopped at the convenience store and I decided to grab a croissant. I figured some sort of bread would help regulate whatever was causing the spell. It did work for a brief amount of time but the dizziness came back again shortly after.
We stopped for breakfast 1/2 way there and I ate a sandwich to help balance out my sugar levels or whatever it is that is causing the dizzy spells. It did OK for a little while but then they came back a 3rd time once we reached our destination. Finally it surpassed on the way back home. Dave is worried about me and thinks I should go to a doctor but they aren't going to be able to figure anything out if I am not currently having the spells when I am there. I figure I will wait it out a few days and see how things go.
I feel fat today. I'm sure it's all this bad eating that I have been doing. I said before I don't believe in posting my weight till after I sleep but I did just step on the scale and was pleased to see 158.8. That's before I even have time to sleep. I'm not using that number yet though. I'm going to go and pass out and see what happens when I wake up.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Road Trip
For those that really know me, know that I am very close to my exhusband, Dave. We had a nice lunch yesterday and I could tell from the first moment we talked yesterday he was fishing for something when he was asking me about my schedule. Well, he was. He has to do a day trip to California early Tuesday morning for work and doesn't want to go alone so he asked if I would come along. I honestly have been looking forward to these days off that I have so I could relax and do nothing but I agreed to go for moral support.
We leave in about 4hours or so. The trip isn't so bad, it's approximately 4 hours each way. I tried to go to sleep early (8:30pm) tonight but as you can see, I'm up 2 1/2 hrs later. That wasn't really what I had in mind but what can ya do? I'm going to take the time to clean my place so that when I do get home it will be to a clean home.
Part of the problem with this trip is that it's going to mess up my weigh-in schedule. I like to weigh-in after I sleep and since that won't be till tomorrow afternoon/evening I guess it will be a little skewed or delayed. Also, the road trip itself doesn't lead itself well to ideal eating habits. I am going to do the best I can.
We leave in about 4hours or so. The trip isn't so bad, it's approximately 4 hours each way. I tried to go to sleep early (8:30pm) tonight but as you can see, I'm up 2 1/2 hrs later. That wasn't really what I had in mind but what can ya do? I'm going to take the time to clean my place so that when I do get home it will be to a clean home.
Part of the problem with this trip is that it's going to mess up my weigh-in schedule. I like to weigh-in after I sleep and since that won't be till tomorrow afternoon/evening I guess it will be a little skewed or delayed. Also, the road trip itself doesn't lead itself well to ideal eating habits. I am going to do the best I can.
Pros
So lately I have been in better spirits and a much more clear and focused frame of mind. I am not sure if it's just the motivation to keep doing well, the continued results, or the happy pills. Honestly, I don't care.
Oh and that's another thing. I think that might be a result of the happy pills but I don't stress like I used to. I care about things, and still want to be my best. But I don't lose sleep for 3 days or over analyze everything that happened. I move on. It's REALLY nice!
Yet another positive thing to this diet, I am not spending the same amount of money on food. I mean, I have been spending more on supplements and whatnot, but I still think I am saving money. Yay!
Finally, I decided to look at my old blog from 3 years ago when I got back on track before. I wanted to see the progress from day to day that I made when I was taking Alli and compare so that I could have a better frame of reference. Well guess what I found?! I found that it took me 15 days last time to get to the success that I have reached in the last 5 days! That's incredible! I am seriously inspired to continue doing well and continue seeing results.
As a way to help with motivation I decided I need more mini-goals to look forward to. I've decided to set some more intervals so that I can stimulate more motivation. For example, I plan to set my next mini goal as 155lbs.
I do have a small challenge for the day but I am hoping for the best... Dave called and wants to have late lunch at Sweet Tomatoes. It's primarily salad, fruits, & soup. They do have some things like pizza, pasta and some yummy rolls/breads/muffins, oh and desserts. I plan on being pretty focused though. I am going to get a large salad (which is good cause I don't eat enough veggies at home) and some soup and maybe a roll or muffin. No pasta, no pizza, no dessert. Not sure I will see any success tomorrow but I am still going to think positive.
Oh and that's another thing. I think that might be a result of the happy pills but I don't stress like I used to. I care about things, and still want to be my best. But I don't lose sleep for 3 days or over analyze everything that happened. I move on. It's REALLY nice!
Yet another positive thing to this diet, I am not spending the same amount of money on food. I mean, I have been spending more on supplements and whatnot, but I still think I am saving money. Yay!
Finally, I decided to look at my old blog from 3 years ago when I got back on track before. I wanted to see the progress from day to day that I made when I was taking Alli and compare so that I could have a better frame of reference. Well guess what I found?! I found that it took me 15 days last time to get to the success that I have reached in the last 5 days! That's incredible! I am seriously inspired to continue doing well and continue seeing results.
As a way to help with motivation I decided I need more mini-goals to look forward to. I've decided to set some more intervals so that I can stimulate more motivation. For example, I plan to set my next mini goal as 155lbs.
I do have a small challenge for the day but I am hoping for the best... Dave called and wants to have late lunch at Sweet Tomatoes. It's primarily salad, fruits, & soup. They do have some things like pizza, pasta and some yummy rolls/breads/muffins, oh and desserts. I plan on being pretty focused though. I am going to get a large salad (which is good cause I don't eat enough veggies at home) and some soup and maybe a roll or muffin. No pasta, no pizza, no dessert. Not sure I will see any success tomorrow but I am still going to think positive.
Day 5
Weight: 158.2 (-0.6/day; -4.2/week; -4.2/week)
I'm very excited to see that number! I wasn't so sure I would see results today since yesterday I chose the foods I wanted to eat to make up my 500 calories. I didn't follow the crazy strict diet. I also drank some tea for regulation and I'm hoping that it's not the only reason for the loss. We'll see tomorrow!
I'm very excited to see that number! I wasn't so sure I would see results today since yesterday I chose the foods I wanted to eat to make up my 500 calories. I didn't follow the crazy strict diet. I also drank some tea for regulation and I'm hoping that it's not the only reason for the loss. We'll see tomorrow!
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Happy
I don't know if it's the happy pills or the fact that I am eating foods I actually like, but I'm seriously in such better spirits lately.
Today I actually ate 2 meals that I wanted for my lunch and dinner. I'm hoping that I still see some results in the morning so that I can keep doing this. I am looking forward to continued results.
Back to work I go! *Fingers Crossed*
Today I actually ate 2 meals that I wanted for my lunch and dinner. I'm hoping that I still see some results in the morning so that I can keep doing this. I am looking forward to continued results.
Back to work I go! *Fingers Crossed*
Day 4
Weight: 158.8 (-0.4/day; -3.6/week; -3.6/total)
I'm really excited to see that loss. Seriously. I know that it's not as much as the other days but considering my slips and the fact that I actually FELT better yesterday, it's really nice to see. It makes me see that I can do a combination of HCG protocol and very low calorie diet where I incorporate things I actually like and enjoy. That's not to say that I am going to change the program completely, cause I'm not. Just let's me know that I can tweak it some and see some pretty great results.
Today is my "Friday" and I really can't wait to have this week over. I've been working so much over the last few weeks and I could really use a regular weekend.
I also have to admit that I was in a really good mood yesterday. I didn't take the B-12 but I did take the mood-enhancer. I don't know if the mood-enhancer was a contributing factor since I noticed the very cheery mood towards the end of my shift. Either way, I felt like "me." I've also noticed that I have been sleeping better lately too. I haven't been having bad dreams or tossing and turning. I haven't needed any sleep aids either.
I'm really excited to see that loss. Seriously. I know that it's not as much as the other days but considering my slips and the fact that I actually FELT better yesterday, it's really nice to see. It makes me see that I can do a combination of HCG protocol and very low calorie diet where I incorporate things I actually like and enjoy. That's not to say that I am going to change the program completely, cause I'm not. Just let's me know that I can tweak it some and see some pretty great results.
Today is my "Friday" and I really can't wait to have this week over. I've been working so much over the last few weeks and I could really use a regular weekend.
I also have to admit that I was in a really good mood yesterday. I didn't take the B-12 but I did take the mood-enhancer. I don't know if the mood-enhancer was a contributing factor since I noticed the very cheery mood towards the end of my shift. Either way, I felt like "me." I've also noticed that I have been sleeping better lately too. I haven't been having bad dreams or tossing and turning. I haven't needed any sleep aids either.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
My Slip
OK so I had such high hopes for the day and have been feeling so much better than the last 2 days. Then, my bosses birthday celebration at work sabotaged me. I was guilted into having cake. I did say no, I promise. I meant it too. But then my boss got offended and I was able to ask for a "small" piece instead. Ugh.
I was going to just chalk it up to a small mistake and see what happens but now that I am home for dinner on my break I slipped again. I have been wavering about just going back on WW and doing this weight loss the healthy, slow and steady way. I think I have made my decision. Now it's just a matter of sticking to it. I want to see results. I want to get back to good.
I was going to just chalk it up to a small mistake and see what happens but now that I am home for dinner on my break I slipped again. I have been wavering about just going back on WW and doing this weight loss the healthy, slow and steady way. I think I have made my decision. Now it's just a matter of sticking to it. I want to see results. I want to get back to good.
Day 3
Weight: 159.2 (-1.2/day; -3.2/week; -3.2/total)
Yay! Another pound gone! Woohoo! and I have made it to the 150's! *Jumping for joy!* Time to set another goal to get into the 140's!
Overall yesterday was a very good day. I felt better and wasn't thinking about "the diet" all day. I'm still contemplating how long I want to do this diet for due to the extreme limitations but I'm definitely seeing results and the side affects are improving.
Today I have to go into work early. I have overtime before my shift which means I have to have my lunch 90 mins before I normally do. I set my alarm to help me wake up earlier so I can begin my 32oz water breakfast.
I have to say, this diet forces me into a schedule. I need structure and thrive much better when I have it.
Here's hoping that today is another positive day with great results!
Yay! Another pound gone! Woohoo! and I have made it to the 150's! *Jumping for joy!* Time to set another goal to get into the 140's!
Overall yesterday was a very good day. I felt better and wasn't thinking about "the diet" all day. I'm still contemplating how long I want to do this diet for due to the extreme limitations but I'm definitely seeing results and the side affects are improving.
Today I have to go into work early. I have overtime before my shift which means I have to have my lunch 90 mins before I normally do. I set my alarm to help me wake up earlier so I can begin my 32oz water breakfast.
I have to say, this diet forces me into a schedule. I need structure and thrive much better when I have it.
Here's hoping that today is another positive day with great results!
Friday, August 6, 2010
My day so far...
Today has been a complete 180 from yesterday. It hasn't been the horrible experience that I had before at all. With that being said, I am still having some issues with dizziness. I also have some mental issues with the program. I just keep thinking that this doesn't feel safe. I mean, I know that 500 calories per day isn't ideal but I have a problem with the fact that I can't choose which foods to eat for those 500 calories. I find it astonishing that I can't have beans or cereal.
That's not to say that I am hungry, cause I'm not. I just don't like that I don't understand why I can't have my 500 calories any way I want. I thought about having cereal for dinner instead just to see if it really made a difference but then I thought better of it and decided not to sabotage myself just yet. Yesterday was a great day, I shouldn't feel this unhappy should I?
I have been trying to make deals with myself on how I want to proceed from here. Part of that has to come when I see if I have results tomorrow. I am thinking that if I can drop 10 lbs from my original weight that I will switch back over to WW and proceed from there with the slower weight loss methods that don't leave me feeling so empty. We'll see..
That's not to say that I am hungry, cause I'm not. I just don't like that I don't understand why I can't have my 500 calories any way I want. I thought about having cereal for dinner instead just to see if it really made a difference but then I thought better of it and decided not to sabotage myself just yet. Yesterday was a great day, I shouldn't feel this unhappy should I?
I have been trying to make deals with myself on how I want to proceed from here. Part of that has to come when I see if I have results tomorrow. I am thinking that if I can drop 10 lbs from my original weight that I will switch back over to WW and proceed from there with the slower weight loss methods that don't leave me feeling so empty. We'll see..
B-12
I headed to the store and picked up the mood enhancer and the B-12. The mood enhancer says that I have to take it with food so I am waiting till my lunch for that one. I did take the B-12 though. I am feeling ok for now. Not sure if it's just me or if it's because of the B-12. Either way, I'm ok for now.
I've decided to have some chicken w/hot sauce and onion soup for lunch. I'm going to bring my orange to work for a snack for later if needed. For dinner I am going to have another steak with mushrooms since I enoyed that yesterday as well.
I decided not to have any tea this morning and that might be part of why I am feeling better this morning too. I have had the 32oz of water but I just didn't have any tea since it made me nauseous yesterday. So far it's better.
I'm not sure if it's related (which I assume it is) but I can tell that my lips are dehydrated a bit. I'm sure that some of the weight loss is due to water weight but I'm hoping that not all of it is. Time will tell...
I've decided to have some chicken w/hot sauce and onion soup for lunch. I'm going to bring my orange to work for a snack for later if needed. For dinner I am going to have another steak with mushrooms since I enoyed that yesterday as well.
I decided not to have any tea this morning and that might be part of why I am feeling better this morning too. I have had the 32oz of water but I just didn't have any tea since it made me nauseous yesterday. So far it's better.
I'm not sure if it's related (which I assume it is) but I can tell that my lips are dehydrated a bit. I'm sure that some of the weight loss is due to water weight but I'm hoping that not all of it is. Time will tell...
Day 2
Weight: 160.4 (-2.0/day; -2.0/week; -2.0/total)
Wow! Well I asked to see some results and there ya go! I woke up feeling better and alert and awake... then, I went outside to grab something out of my car and I was drained from just walking up my stairs. Seriously. That's not normal. Now I'm starting to get that not-so-great feeling again. I definitely need to get that mood stabilizer today!
I'm also going to need to find a way to balance out my morning-noon-night meal plan for my work days. Realistically, I just don't wake up early enough before work to be able to drink 32oz of fluids before lunch and then make something to eat before leaving. I'm going to have to start finding some quick portable meals that I can take with me. I'm working on it...
Now that I've rested some for the walk outside, I'd like to get back into the happy spirits and celebration of my 2lb loss! Yay! Look, I am almost able to see my goal of the 150's!
Speaking of goals, I did very well yesterday and had all my 8 glasses of water. That is always such a challenge for me but I did it! Yay!
Wow! Well I asked to see some results and there ya go! I woke up feeling better and alert and awake... then, I went outside to grab something out of my car and I was drained from just walking up my stairs. Seriously. That's not normal. Now I'm starting to get that not-so-great feeling again. I definitely need to get that mood stabilizer today!
I'm also going to need to find a way to balance out my morning-noon-night meal plan for my work days. Realistically, I just don't wake up early enough before work to be able to drink 32oz of fluids before lunch and then make something to eat before leaving. I'm going to have to start finding some quick portable meals that I can take with me. I'm working on it...
Now that I've rested some for the walk outside, I'd like to get back into the happy spirits and celebration of my 2lb loss! Yay! Look, I am almost able to see my goal of the 150's!
Speaking of goals, I did very well yesterday and had all my 8 glasses of water. That is always such a challenge for me but I did it! Yay!
Meal Woes
OK so for lunch I had a 4oz steak with mushrooms and then ate cauliflower as my veggie. It was quite tasty and it filled me up just fine for lunch. I didn't get hungry till a few hours later which is when I grabbed my orange and snacked on that till I came home for dinner.
Dinner is where things went horribly wrong. I just didn't plan correctly and so my crab meat didn't look or taste appetizing at all. I barely ate any of it. I ended up eating my grapefruit (which I really really enjoyed) and ended up heading back to work. The drops helped me not to be hungry but I was definitely focused on not having a "satisfying" meal.
I just came home from work and wanted something to eat since I am pretty sure I didn't even hit my 500 calories today (oops) and so I took some chicken breast and dipped it in some Hot Sauce. I read the bottle and all the ingredients were diet-approved! Yay! It totally made my night! I had a very small portion since I don't want to go over and honestly I plan on going to sleep very soon. No need to mess up my day. I am finishing up some tea that should help with regularity and then I'm off to bed.
After having such a crazy emotional day of ups and downs I have decided that I want to get the mood stabilizer supplement that the GNC clerk told me about and some B-12 to help with energy. It wasn't the best of ideas to start this on my Monday for work. Between the caffeine withdrawal and low calorie adjustment, I could have used a few days at home to cope with the changes.
I'm excited to see the scale in the morning. I have to admit, I need to see some improvements cause this was a rough day and I need a smile from the scale to remind me that this is all for a good cause.
Dinner is where things went horribly wrong. I just didn't plan correctly and so my crab meat didn't look or taste appetizing at all. I barely ate any of it. I ended up eating my grapefruit (which I really really enjoyed) and ended up heading back to work. The drops helped me not to be hungry but I was definitely focused on not having a "satisfying" meal.
I just came home from work and wanted something to eat since I am pretty sure I didn't even hit my 500 calories today (oops) and so I took some chicken breast and dipped it in some Hot Sauce. I read the bottle and all the ingredients were diet-approved! Yay! It totally made my night! I had a very small portion since I don't want to go over and honestly I plan on going to sleep very soon. No need to mess up my day. I am finishing up some tea that should help with regularity and then I'm off to bed.
After having such a crazy emotional day of ups and downs I have decided that I want to get the mood stabilizer supplement that the GNC clerk told me about and some B-12 to help with energy. It wasn't the best of ideas to start this on my Monday for work. Between the caffeine withdrawal and low calorie adjustment, I could have used a few days at home to cope with the changes.
I'm excited to see the scale in the morning. I have to admit, I need to see some improvements cause this was a rough day and I need a smile from the scale to remind me that this is all for a good cause.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Ups & Downs
Today has been a whirlwind of emotions and feelings. I wrote notes throughout work so I could remember to post them when I came home from dinner.
For some reason I have had some major neck pains the last couple of days. It was bothering me so much when I went to work that I took 2 ibuprofen. I'm not sure if they affected me more than normal because of the low calorie count or if it was some sort of unrelated issue but I turned dizzy and was unable to focus on anything at all! Seriously, my attention span was non-existent. That's not something that I am able to have happen with my job so I was pretty worried.
A couple hours later I ate part of my orange and started to feel a bit better. I was more focused. I still was extremely sluggish and exhausted and would much rather be off today to recover. That's not a good idea for MANY reasons and honestly just isn't really an option.
I believe that part of the problem I am having might be my body going through caffeine withdrawals. I'm not completely sure though. Time will tell.
I have to head back to work. When I get home later I will discuss my meal issues.
For some reason I have had some major neck pains the last couple of days. It was bothering me so much when I went to work that I took 2 ibuprofen. I'm not sure if they affected me more than normal because of the low calorie count or if it was some sort of unrelated issue but I turned dizzy and was unable to focus on anything at all! Seriously, my attention span was non-existent. That's not something that I am able to have happen with my job so I was pretty worried.
A couple hours later I ate part of my orange and started to feel a bit better. I was more focused. I still was extremely sluggish and exhausted and would much rather be off today to recover. That's not a good idea for MANY reasons and honestly just isn't really an option.
I believe that part of the problem I am having might be my body going through caffeine withdrawals. I'm not completely sure though. Time will tell.
I have to head back to work. When I get home later I will discuss my meal issues.
Pictures
I know that everyone says to take them whenever you are making big changes but part of what I hate about my weight is what I look like in pictures. Not to mention nearly naked! I did decide over the last couple of hours to go ahead and take them. I am under no circumstances comfortable actually posting them at the moment but maybe as we see some progress I might be willing to post some before and after's. We'll see.
On a side note, the nausea has subsided thankfully. I have also successfully made it to drinking the 32oz's before lunch as well. I am supposed to be preparing my meal in the next 30 mins or so and I am not hungry at all! I also didn't have fruit for breakfast either. I didn't have a need or want for it at that time so I am going to bring it to work with me when I go this afternoon to assist with any potential cravings while I am there.
Completely unrelated to dieting at all, I am waiting for the UPS man to show up with my package and I am afraid he isn't going to come before I leave for work. This means I have to wait until tomorrow to get it from the office and I hate waiting! I still have just over an hour for him to show up. *Fingers crossed!*
On a side note, the nausea has subsided thankfully. I have also successfully made it to drinking the 32oz's before lunch as well. I am supposed to be preparing my meal in the next 30 mins or so and I am not hungry at all! I also didn't have fruit for breakfast either. I didn't have a need or want for it at that time so I am going to bring it to work with me when I go this afternoon to assist with any potential cravings while I am there.
Completely unrelated to dieting at all, I am waiting for the UPS man to show up with my package and I am afraid he isn't going to come before I leave for work. This means I have to wait until tomorrow to get it from the office and I hate waiting! I still have just over an hour for him to show up. *Fingers crossed!*
Blah
OK so I had my first tea in 2 cups of water. I feel better if I can dilute it down. If it's not so strong I have a better chance of actually drinking it. However, now that I am finished I am sort of nauseous. I am not sure if it's just from drinking too much water in less then an hour or if it's the tea (which I already mentioned I'm not a fan of).
I still need to drink 2 more cups of water in the next 2 hours. That doesn't "sound" bad on paper but it certainly seems daunting with the bloating/nauseous feeling I have going on right now.
I still need to drink 2 more cups of water in the next 2 hours. That doesn't "sound" bad on paper but it certainly seems daunting with the bloating/nauseous feeling I have going on right now.
Humorous Fate
Each day I receive my horoscope sent to my phone at 10:30am. I couldn't help but share the one I received this morning since it made me smile:
In a health or medical matter there is a clear danger of contamination if people don't follow the rules.
Ha!
In a health or medical matter there is a clear danger of contamination if people don't follow the rules.
Ha!
Day 1
Weight: 162.4
Good Morning! Well I'm happy to see that my load days didn't have a huge impact on my weight gain. Only 0.2lbs, not too shabby! I'm sure part of that had to do with me burning calories playing Laser Tag. Who knows. Either way, I stepped on the scale was actually happy to see the number above. That's right, that number is the highest I've ever seen it and somehow seeing that the load day didn't make it even higher has started me off in a good mood today.
I have taken my drops for the morning and am waiting for the 15 mins before I make my morning tea. Have I mentioned that I don't like tea? Well, I don't. I have been getting better over the years in not "hating" it any longer, but I certainly don't like it. I purchased a few different ones last night so that I can hopefully find something that I enjoy. We'll see!
I was reading some back logs of blogs that I found last night from people that did the program in the last few years. Most of them mentioned that they seem to be overly thirsty on the program. I found yesterday that I was pretty thirsty by the end of the day, I have always had trouble drinking enough water but hopefully that little side effect will work in my favor. I am supposed to have had 32oz of water (and or tea) by lunch time.
I've decided that I need to have structure for how I eat (or more importantly, when I eat).
10:00am - Wake up, Weigh-In, Drops, Tea & Water
2:00pm - Lunch
Snack
8:00pm-10:00pm - Dinner
Snack
2:30am - Sleep
We'll see if that works...
Good Morning! Well I'm happy to see that my load days didn't have a huge impact on my weight gain. Only 0.2lbs, not too shabby! I'm sure part of that had to do with me burning calories playing Laser Tag. Who knows. Either way, I stepped on the scale was actually happy to see the number above. That's right, that number is the highest I've ever seen it and somehow seeing that the load day didn't make it even higher has started me off in a good mood today.
I have taken my drops for the morning and am waiting for the 15 mins before I make my morning tea. Have I mentioned that I don't like tea? Well, I don't. I have been getting better over the years in not "hating" it any longer, but I certainly don't like it. I purchased a few different ones last night so that I can hopefully find something that I enjoy. We'll see!
I was reading some back logs of blogs that I found last night from people that did the program in the last few years. Most of them mentioned that they seem to be overly thirsty on the program. I found yesterday that I was pretty thirsty by the end of the day, I have always had trouble drinking enough water but hopefully that little side effect will work in my favor. I am supposed to have had 32oz of water (and or tea) by lunch time.
I've decided that I need to have structure for how I eat (or more importantly, when I eat).
10:00am - Wake up, Weigh-In, Drops, Tea & Water
2:00pm - Lunch
Snack
8:00pm-10:00pm - Dinner
Snack
2:30am - Sleep
We'll see if that works...
Splurge!
So for the 2 days before you being the VLCD (Very Low Calorie Diet) you are instructed to eat your little heart out. I didn't really plan on doing it. I thought to myself that I didn't want to gain even more weight to try to burn off. But then I went out. I met up with some friends to play Laser Tag and it was SO much fun! OH MY! What a blast! And a pretty cool workout in the process too!
When we finished we decided to hit up Denny's next door so I decided to just give in and indulge. I had a Mushroom Swiss Burger and Fries. Afterward I went and got some Frozen Yogurt with all the yummy toppings I never let myself have normally. I am beyond stuffed and I'm honestly not very happy about it. I mean, it's OK, but I don't look forward to the scale tomorrow.
I was going to blog right before I left to go out cause Latoya said it's important to put my feelings out on paper (even if it's virtual paper). I have to admit, before actually getting to Laser Tag I was completely dreading it. I was looking for all sorts of excuses to go home as early as possible. Why? Cause I'm not comfortable in my own skin. How messed up is that?! Either way, I did go and I'm really glad I did.
With that being said, I didn't make it to the grocery store before I came home. In a few minutes I'm gonna have to head to the store so that I am prepared for Day 1 tomorrow.
When we finished we decided to hit up Denny's next door so I decided to just give in and indulge. I had a Mushroom Swiss Burger and Fries. Afterward I went and got some Frozen Yogurt with all the yummy toppings I never let myself have normally. I am beyond stuffed and I'm honestly not very happy about it. I mean, it's OK, but I don't look forward to the scale tomorrow.
I was going to blog right before I left to go out cause Latoya said it's important to put my feelings out on paper (even if it's virtual paper). I have to admit, before actually getting to Laser Tag I was completely dreading it. I was looking for all sorts of excuses to go home as early as possible. Why? Cause I'm not comfortable in my own skin. How messed up is that?! Either way, I did go and I'm really glad I did.
With that being said, I didn't make it to the grocery store before I came home. In a few minutes I'm gonna have to head to the store so that I am prepared for Day 1 tomorrow.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Informed
So I've read the program and I am ready to start this! Well, mentally anyway.
Now it's time to get myself a grocery list of things to buy that are "approved" for the meal plans during this 40 day challenge. That's how long the program says that a person should take the drops. At that point you need to phase into other steps to help regulate your metabolism and then you can proceed with another protocol of the drops. There are also specifications that if you are able to reach your goal weight in the first 21-26 days that you can increase from the 500 calorie limit up to 800-1000 calories.
In my prior experience with dieting I have found it really helpful to have other fellow bloggers to follow that are currently taking on the same challenges so that I can gain inspiration or help support. I have found it rather difficult to find anyone blogging about this program recently. There are lots of posts from others that have done the program over the last few years but they have mainly been through the injections. The other pages I've found are from people who are anorexic and using the program as a way to fuel that disease. That's not really the motivation I am looking for. Hopefully as I proceed I will be able to find others. *Fingers Crossed*
Back to the specifics of the program... the ads and boxes and Doctors all say you can lose 30lbs in 30 days. The booklet says the average is 20lbs a month. I need to make sure not to get discouraged as we go!
The Meal Plan:
Breakfast: Tea or Coffee (no sugar) and up to 1 tablespoon of milk. Saccharin or Stevia is OK. Also 1 piece of fruit (Apple, Orange, 6 Strawberries, or 1/2 Grapefruit).
Drink: Drink 32oz (4 cups) of tea, coffee, or water before lunch!
Lunch: 4oz Lean Protein & 2 Cups of Veggies (only 1 type - no mixing & matching).
Dinner: 4oz Lean Protein (different from Lunch) & 2 Cups of Veggies (different from Lunch).
Snack: 1 piece of fruit (Apple, Orange, 6 Strawberries, or 1/2 Grapefruit).
The Shopping List:
Skillet Steak
Chicken
Shrimp
Lobster
Crab
Eggs (1 whole egg and 3 egg whites)
Cauliflower
Spinach
Asparagus
Strawberries
Oranges
Grapefruit
Lemons
Stevia
Salt
Pepper
Chili
Garlic
Sugar Free Tea
Water, Water, Water!
Now it's time to get myself a grocery list of things to buy that are "approved" for the meal plans during this 40 day challenge. That's how long the program says that a person should take the drops. At that point you need to phase into other steps to help regulate your metabolism and then you can proceed with another protocol of the drops. There are also specifications that if you are able to reach your goal weight in the first 21-26 days that you can increase from the 500 calorie limit up to 800-1000 calories.
In my prior experience with dieting I have found it really helpful to have other fellow bloggers to follow that are currently taking on the same challenges so that I can gain inspiration or help support. I have found it rather difficult to find anyone blogging about this program recently. There are lots of posts from others that have done the program over the last few years but they have mainly been through the injections. The other pages I've found are from people who are anorexic and using the program as a way to fuel that disease. That's not really the motivation I am looking for. Hopefully as I proceed I will be able to find others. *Fingers Crossed*
Back to the specifics of the program... the ads and boxes and Doctors all say you can lose 30lbs in 30 days. The booklet says the average is 20lbs a month. I need to make sure not to get discouraged as we go!
The Meal Plan:
Breakfast: Tea or Coffee (no sugar) and up to 1 tablespoon of milk. Saccharin or Stevia is OK. Also 1 piece of fruit (Apple, Orange, 6 Strawberries, or 1/2 Grapefruit).
Drink: Drink 32oz (4 cups) of tea, coffee, or water before lunch!
Lunch: 4oz Lean Protein & 2 Cups of Veggies (only 1 type - no mixing & matching).
Dinner: 4oz Lean Protein (different from Lunch) & 2 Cups of Veggies (different from Lunch).
Snack: 1 piece of fruit (Apple, Orange, 6 Strawberries, or 1/2 Grapefruit).
The Shopping List:
Skillet Steak
Chicken
Shrimp
Lobster
Crab
Eggs (1 whole egg and 3 egg whites)
Cauliflower
Spinach
Asparagus
Strawberries
Oranges
Grapefruit
Lemons
Stevia
Salt
Pepper
Chili
Garlic
Sugar Free Tea
Water, Water, Water!
Day of Demons
Yikes. I have barely been mobile today and had to deal with 2 different issues that I wasn't happy about.
The first was the scale. I decided to take the plunge and hop on today to see where we are at. It's 162.2. I'm clinically obese since I'm only 4'11. Nice. Well I knew that was the approximate number so I can't say I was shocked. I can't dwell on it. I just have to jump head first into this plan so that I can see results and get back to that number in the 120's. It's going to be hard work but I am hoping that seeing some quick results will help me with motivation to keep it going.
The second demon today was the trip to GNC to pick up the HCG. It's weird how walking into a store to buy weight loss supplements can be so daunting. I decided to do my best and hold my head high as I asked for the product from the clerk. The clerk tells me that the particular GNC store that I went to is privately owned and the owner (who is standing behind him) doesn't support the product so they don't sell it. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Just my luck. As I was about to walk out and go to the next GNC the owner decides to stop me and preach to me about how much he hates the product and that it's not modeled the same way as the doctor administered program due to the very low calorie specifications. If I hadn't done all the research on my own of the doctor program here I would have possibly believed him HOWEVER I did! I know that the 500 calorie diet is actually a part of the $1500 program as well. I understand that he has the right to sell whichever products that he wants to support but I don't think I deserve to be lectured about the products I want to purchase when I am not asking for his opinion.
Anyway, I went to the next GNC down the street and that clerk was VERY encouraging and didn't make me feel like a freak at all. He seemed very knowledgeable about the program as a whole and offered some great supplement options to help as you go. He was very enthusiastic as well which helped improve my mood.
The first was the scale. I decided to take the plunge and hop on today to see where we are at. It's 162.2. I'm clinically obese since I'm only 4'11. Nice. Well I knew that was the approximate number so I can't say I was shocked. I can't dwell on it. I just have to jump head first into this plan so that I can see results and get back to that number in the 120's. It's going to be hard work but I am hoping that seeing some quick results will help me with motivation to keep it going.
The second demon today was the trip to GNC to pick up the HCG. It's weird how walking into a store to buy weight loss supplements can be so daunting. I decided to do my best and hold my head high as I asked for the product from the clerk. The clerk tells me that the particular GNC store that I went to is privately owned and the owner (who is standing behind him) doesn't support the product so they don't sell it. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Just my luck. As I was about to walk out and go to the next GNC the owner decides to stop me and preach to me about how much he hates the product and that it's not modeled the same way as the doctor administered program due to the very low calorie specifications. If I hadn't done all the research on my own of the doctor program here I would have possibly believed him HOWEVER I did! I know that the 500 calorie diet is actually a part of the $1500 program as well. I understand that he has the right to sell whichever products that he wants to support but I don't think I deserve to be lectured about the products I want to purchase when I am not asking for his opinion.
Anyway, I went to the next GNC down the street and that clerk was VERY encouraging and didn't make me feel like a freak at all. He seemed very knowledgeable about the program as a whole and offered some great supplement options to help as you go. He was very enthusiastic as well which helped improve my mood.
Goals
I know that the key to success to set small goals and then eventually the small goals will lead to the final big picture.
So let's start with some mini-goals:
--> Weight Watchers believes in 10% goals. Set your first weight loss goal to be a 10% reduction of your current weight. At this time my current weight is around 160lbs. That means my first mini-goal is to lose 16lbs. Sheesh that number seems daunting.
Latoya wrote in her journal that the decision to start a new diet is a difficult one. The decision to stick with the diet is even harder. I am in control of my future. I need to remember that when I have hard days.
--> No matter what you read you always see how important drinking water is. I know that it's something that I have always struggled with and it is something that I know I have seen work in the past. I am going to start realistically and hope for a minimum of 6 glasses of water daily. I would like to see this expand to 8 glasses at some point.
As I go along I would like to increase some of these things and I will add additional goals to my list. For now this is a good start with other factors to come...
So let's start with some mini-goals:
--> Weight Watchers believes in 10% goals. Set your first weight loss goal to be a 10% reduction of your current weight. At this time my current weight is around 160lbs. That means my first mini-goal is to lose 16lbs. Sheesh that number seems daunting.
Latoya wrote in her journal that the decision to start a new diet is a difficult one. The decision to stick with the diet is even harder. I am in control of my future. I need to remember that when I have hard days.
--> No matter what you read you always see how important drinking water is. I know that it's something that I have always struggled with and it is something that I know I have seen work in the past. I am going to start realistically and hope for a minimum of 6 glasses of water daily. I would like to see this expand to 8 glasses at some point.
As I go along I would like to increase some of these things and I will add additional goals to my list. For now this is a good start with other factors to come...
To be, or not be... We'll see with hCG!
So now that we have gotten through the background section now it's on to the future... and with every new start there has to be a new kick-start to my motivation.
I have decided to take on the highly controversial hCG diet. Most of the reviews are impressive and favorable. Everyone that uses it the way it was intended seems to have very quick results that seem to last through the maintenance portion.
I originally was looking into this through the TrimCare clinic that we have here locally. As I researched more and more I read that it required injections daily and a 500 calorie diet per day. Did I also mention the price? It was $1500 for 40 days and I am pretty sure that they recommend several other supplements that were quite costly as well. It scared me horribly and I immediately decided that this wasn't the program for me.
That was 2 weeks ago.
Since then I have learned more about the program and that it isn't the malnourishment that I originally believed it would be. Instead it uses the stored fat you currently have and burns it as energy. I started contemplating going in for a consultation and actually forking over the $1500 (that I DO NOT have) if it was going to guarantee me some results. I wasn't going to use the injections though since there is a nasal spray alternative you can use.
Well, low and behold, with a little more research and a little run in with "fate" I have found that you can now get the liquid form at GNC. It's pricey sure, but nothing compared to the $1500 that may not work. It's $80 +/- per bottle and it's supposed to last 30 days. Not too shabby! Then with further research I was able to find that you can get the diet plan guidelines and suggestions online if you know where to look and a starter guide in the packaging.
I happened to overhear someone I work with discussing how she had just started the program while I was at work today and was so excited to see some other input. In the morning I plan to head on over to GNC and purchase a bottle.
I do know that the plan recommends a 2-day purging where you eat all the high fat and calorie foods you please right before beginning the program. I definitely ate plenty today to qualify as day 1! Tomorrow I have plans with some friends to go play Laser Tag for a while and finish up with what I assume to be some food and drinks before calling it a night. Tomorrow during the day I also plan to purchase the foods necessary to get me through the first day or so of the plan since I will be working.
My first weigh-in day will be Thursday.
I have decided to take on the highly controversial hCG diet. Most of the reviews are impressive and favorable. Everyone that uses it the way it was intended seems to have very quick results that seem to last through the maintenance portion.
I originally was looking into this through the TrimCare clinic that we have here locally. As I researched more and more I read that it required injections daily and a 500 calorie diet per day. Did I also mention the price? It was $1500 for 40 days and I am pretty sure that they recommend several other supplements that were quite costly as well. It scared me horribly and I immediately decided that this wasn't the program for me.
That was 2 weeks ago.
Since then I have learned more about the program and that it isn't the malnourishment that I originally believed it would be. Instead it uses the stored fat you currently have and burns it as energy. I started contemplating going in for a consultation and actually forking over the $1500 (that I DO NOT have) if it was going to guarantee me some results. I wasn't going to use the injections though since there is a nasal spray alternative you can use.
Well, low and behold, with a little more research and a little run in with "fate" I have found that you can now get the liquid form at GNC. It's pricey sure, but nothing compared to the $1500 that may not work. It's $80 +/- per bottle and it's supposed to last 30 days. Not too shabby! Then with further research I was able to find that you can get the diet plan guidelines and suggestions online if you know where to look and a starter guide in the packaging.
I happened to overhear someone I work with discussing how she had just started the program while I was at work today and was so excited to see some other input. In the morning I plan to head on over to GNC and purchase a bottle.
I do know that the plan recommends a 2-day purging where you eat all the high fat and calorie foods you please right before beginning the program. I definitely ate plenty today to qualify as day 1! Tomorrow I have plans with some friends to go play Laser Tag for a while and finish up with what I assume to be some food and drinks before calling it a night. Tomorrow during the day I also plan to purchase the foods necessary to get me through the first day or so of the plan since I will be working.
My first weigh-in day will be Thursday.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Behind the Scenes
I have hit my all-time high weight. I can't even force myself to get on the scale at the moment to actually see the full number staring back at me. I know that quick-fixes don't work and I need to work on some major life changes.
If I look at the last 18 months I can pinpoint some of the emotional blunders that have helped contribute to my weight. OK, some of the emotional baggage occurred before the 18 months; new job, constantly changing schedule, no sleep, high stress, my relationship with Ryan, and ultimately my miscarriage. Whew. That was all BEFORE I lost control of my eating completely.
So now it's time to start letting go of the more recent baggage that started with the horrible letter from (Lil) Dave. It's crazy for me to look back at all the stress (both good and bad) that came with the price of having a relationship with him. During the good times, it seemed so worth it. It always does right? But that final straw, the final closure letter that he wrote (more to prove something to Sandra then to actually finalize anything to me) still affects me more then I thought one sentence ever could. In the whole span of our relationship I had fluctuated between 3-5lbs up or down. With that being said, I found it shocking that he listed my "apathy for weight loss" as one of the main reasons he chose not to be with me any longer. I was OK with the idea that we just weren't meant to be. I have no delusions that everyone has to love me. I can handle a breakup and find peace of mind in any other normal circumstances but for some reason this particular sentence has sent me into a tailspin that I can't seem to pull out of.
Shortly after that breakup my father was hospitalized and had to have a triple bypass surgery. He is extremely obese and he had major complication after major complication. We nearly lost him several times. He was hospitalized for 6 weeks and I was by his side every moment that I wasn't at work. This helped fuel my poor eating habits since I strictly ate fast food on the run. It was my way to cope. I had to be the strong person in the family and keep a guard up so food became my outlet.
As soon as my father was finally released from the hospital and starting to function on his own I went back into the academy and back to stress stress stress. Not to mention that my schedule went back to changing every 4-weeks and sleeping was impossible without some sort of supplement. Have a bad training day? You deserve unhealthy foods!
Well, I have gotten to the point where I don't even want to face anyone anymore. I am so uncomfortable in my own skin that I don't want to go out. I don't want to spend time with friends. I don't want to date. I can't fit in my clothes.
The horrible breakup and my father's illness should have both been things that fuel me to become the healthiest "me".
I am tired of feeling this way. I realized that I have a binge eating addiction and it has to stop. I can't continue to live like this cause ultimately I'm not "living" at all.
If I look at the last 18 months I can pinpoint some of the emotional blunders that have helped contribute to my weight. OK, some of the emotional baggage occurred before the 18 months; new job, constantly changing schedule, no sleep, high stress, my relationship with Ryan, and ultimately my miscarriage. Whew. That was all BEFORE I lost control of my eating completely.
So now it's time to start letting go of the more recent baggage that started with the horrible letter from (Lil) Dave. It's crazy for me to look back at all the stress (both good and bad) that came with the price of having a relationship with him. During the good times, it seemed so worth it. It always does right? But that final straw, the final closure letter that he wrote (more to prove something to Sandra then to actually finalize anything to me) still affects me more then I thought one sentence ever could. In the whole span of our relationship I had fluctuated between 3-5lbs up or down. With that being said, I found it shocking that he listed my "apathy for weight loss" as one of the main reasons he chose not to be with me any longer. I was OK with the idea that we just weren't meant to be. I have no delusions that everyone has to love me. I can handle a breakup and find peace of mind in any other normal circumstances but for some reason this particular sentence has sent me into a tailspin that I can't seem to pull out of.
Shortly after that breakup my father was hospitalized and had to have a triple bypass surgery. He is extremely obese and he had major complication after major complication. We nearly lost him several times. He was hospitalized for 6 weeks and I was by his side every moment that I wasn't at work. This helped fuel my poor eating habits since I strictly ate fast food on the run. It was my way to cope. I had to be the strong person in the family and keep a guard up so food became my outlet.
As soon as my father was finally released from the hospital and starting to function on his own I went back into the academy and back to stress stress stress. Not to mention that my schedule went back to changing every 4-weeks and sleeping was impossible without some sort of supplement. Have a bad training day? You deserve unhealthy foods!
Well, I have gotten to the point where I don't even want to face anyone anymore. I am so uncomfortable in my own skin that I don't want to go out. I don't want to spend time with friends. I don't want to date. I can't fit in my clothes.
The horrible breakup and my father's illness should have both been things that fuel me to become the healthiest "me".
I am tired of feeling this way. I realized that I have a binge eating addiction and it has to stop. I can't continue to live like this cause ultimately I'm not "living" at all.
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